*sigh*
$450 invested in 4 new tires on my Mazda...
I'm tired, almost no sleep... been listening to music all day... Travis mainly though I'm listening to the wonderful Camper Van Beethoven now.
The more I think about it the more I want to damn my manic tendancies... my damn pride of "this is who I am so I'll deal"... I'm sure a few of those spiffy prescription pills would help... *sigh*
Atleast I'm honest enough with myself to know what the hell is going on inside.
I don't want to go back to work on Friday... I want to just wander. Travel... get into my car and drive somewhere... the northern coast above San Fran or something. I feel very caged in where I'm at right now for some reason... no rational way to explain it.
A limbo feeling as well... I'm sitting here in the dark... not tired enough to sleep but not awake enough to not want to crawl into bed.
Ugh... I'll be better tommorow morning damnit.
$450 invested in 4 new tires on my Mazda...
I'm tired, almost no sleep... been listening to music all day... Travis mainly though I'm listening to the wonderful Camper Van Beethoven now.
The more I think about it the more I want to damn my manic tendancies... my damn pride of "this is who I am so I'll deal"... I'm sure a few of those spiffy prescription pills would help... *sigh*
Atleast I'm honest enough with myself to know what the hell is going on inside.
I don't want to go back to work on Friday... I want to just wander. Travel... get into my car and drive somewhere... the northern coast above San Fran or something. I feel very caged in where I'm at right now for some reason... no rational way to explain it.
A limbo feeling as well... I'm sitting here in the dark... not tired enough to sleep but not awake enough to not want to crawl into bed.
Ugh... I'll be better tommorow morning damnit.