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themadcaplaughs

If I don't know where my heart is can I know where my home is?

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Sunday Aug 21, 2005

Aug 21, 2005
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Well, I just got home... and I'm going to head to bed... and try to sleep my worries away...

You know when everything around you seems to be going perfect with something (in my case a girl) and then one little thing pops up to give you hideous pangs of doubt.

Yeah, that happened to me tonight... Self confidence issues, fear, doubt, anxiety have all come forth tonight. Am I a day late and a dollar short, am I good enough, where do I stand, what does she think of me, am I being to bold, not bold enough, moving to fast, too slow, should I just give in and kiss her, should I walk away... should I care?

I don't think I'm going to get much sleep tonight... I'm scared.... scared that I'm going to fail again before I even get my feet off the ground... I feel almost sick to my stomach...

In short... tonight I'm fucked up in the head.

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