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Monday Feb 21, 2005

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Tortured Soul 3
Something I want but I dare not take
Burning my heart whenever I awake
Wanting to touch but I dont dare
Cursing my life that is very unfair
Wishing I hadnt let go that day long past
Wondering how long this pain will last
Searching for something to fill this gap
Knowing the answer wont fall in my lap
Debating where I should go from here
Since losing control is what I fear
Beating myself for what I desire
Trying to extinguish this damned fire
Looking for ways to stay in check
Always avoiding the thought "what the heck"
Keeping these feelings locked deep inside

I decided to post the third poem in this series here first before it gets put up with the rest of my work,.

As far as today goes it was fairly boring, took my brothers wife to her doctor's appointment, and spent 2 hours in thw waiting room before she was called then another hour after, and when I finally got home I ended up sitting on my ass bored and still unable to finish off the second chapter of the story I'm working on.

Tomarrow I am not looking forward to, at 6 in the morning I have to be at a hospital 45min away to get another MRI, I hate getting these, most people cant feel anything during them, but because my bodys electrochemical balance is different it feels like every bit of flesh is being pulled in 12 directions at once(think of how it feels when someone twists your skin both ways at once) added to that the fact that because my hip is fucked I phisicly can not lay flat anymore, it makes MRIs about the most painful test they have, so for this attempt they are going to have to give me general anasteetic. One thing that should be interesting is seeing my parents reaction to the tattoo I got earlier this month, they still havent noticed it despite the fact that I havent hidden it from them.
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yuriel:
amen man.
EL SUICIDO LOCO
Feb 21, 2005
ash:
crap, ya know ... I am not sure the name of the shop he works at, its in milwaukee or .. somewhere near there I think. His name is sillytattoonuts if u want to ask him yourself. smile
Feb 22, 2005

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