why are all my freinds going gray?
so its 5:32am....
i had bad dreams all night. whats worse is i cant remember them. i have nothing to rationalize into acceptance. just that eerie feeling. im up too early for work which is fine, really. i havent had the oppourtunity to get on the site for way too long. maybe its for the best. ive been...
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so its 5:32am....
i had bad dreams all night. whats worse is i cant remember them. i have nothing to rationalize into acceptance. just that eerie feeling. im up too early for work which is fine, really. i havent had the oppourtunity to get on the site for way too long. maybe its for the best. ive been...
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comicking:
If she's working 6/06, I'm going too. I have that day off from work and the next day. I can let you know if she's working and you have a cell number, or I can give you mine, just let me know...mofo.
honeychile007:
What's the status on the dead pool? Any new deaths?
ive been not so here....
the past week sucked my left nut. all rainy and cold n shit... friday on was so nice though i wanted to go streaking...at night, at night.....jeez
instead i barely made it to my ink appt. on time and got me some ouchies.
i like to consider myself not so pussy but this time i was squirming a bit. kyle...
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the past week sucked my left nut. all rainy and cold n shit... friday on was so nice though i wanted to go streaking...at night, at night.....jeez
instead i barely made it to my ink appt. on time and got me some ouchies.
i like to consider myself not so pussy but this time i was squirming a bit. kyle...
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rosehips:
Its funny. I can take a lot of pain. I started doing bone conditioning when I was in my early teens. I have done things to my body to increase my flexibility, quickness and endurance that would make some people pass out. But I am a little afraid of the idea of being tattooed. See when you have that adrenylyn going you can take a lot more. I am not sure I can be as tough when I am just sitting there passively.
Anyway, to answer the question you asked
in your last comment to my journal:
Why would I avoid the love of my life?
God that is a tough question. Two years ago it seemed easy to answer. Now, I don't know.
But here goes.
Because he is the love of my life and I can't just be friends anymore. Not with a man who does more for me with a hug or a casual touch than most men could do for me with hours of concerted effort. Not when he and I both know that we are more than friends no matter what limitations we may place on the friendship.
Because he belongs to another.
Because I love him too much to force him into making a choice that he will always hate himself for.
Because I waited too long for him to choose me.
Because I no longer believed that someday he would stop lying. To me, to her, but, most of all, to himself.
Because I know he loves me. If he didn't this would all be so much easier for me.
But he does. Just not enough.
Anyway, to answer the question you asked
in your last comment to my journal:
Why would I avoid the love of my life?
God that is a tough question. Two years ago it seemed easy to answer. Now, I don't know.
But here goes.
Because he is the love of my life and I can't just be friends anymore. Not with a man who does more for me with a hug or a casual touch than most men could do for me with hours of concerted effort. Not when he and I both know that we are more than friends no matter what limitations we may place on the friendship.
Because he belongs to another.
Because I love him too much to force him into making a choice that he will always hate himself for.
Because I waited too long for him to choose me.
Because I no longer believed that someday he would stop lying. To me, to her, but, most of all, to himself.
Because I know he loves me. If he didn't this would all be so much easier for me.
But he does. Just not enough.
danielle:
i know i type really fast and sometimes i have just the worst typos.
but i'm back home now.
but i'm back home now.
i ::♥:: summer....
give me some time, i'll think of something clever and come back
give me some time, i'll think of something clever and come back
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comicking:
Yeah, I've had the pee dream often. Usually I wake up, check the area of the bed I'm facing, get up and go pee. I have that dream when I need to pee "like a racehorse" and my body is trying to tell me to go take care of it... or else! 
jimmypheenom:
dude....Hookahville, It's the funnest time i've ever had. check out the site, you should seriously consider hittin' that shit up. Out of this fuckin world man, seriously.
wow, was that me gone that whole time??
its been a while but, whaddya want, its finally warm out.......
so the only thing i dont like about going to certain coffee shops located in canal park(natsuko back me up here?)is the vegan hippies. i could go off about the general hippies but for now, i'll stick with the vegans. meat is murder. your right. but...
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its been a while but, whaddya want, its finally warm out.......
so the only thing i dont like about going to certain coffee shops located in canal park(natsuko back me up here?)is the vegan hippies. i could go off about the general hippies but for now, i'll stick with the vegans. meat is murder. your right. but...
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natsuko:
Nope, 5'3" and I never go to Canal because the people there suck. Although I will go to the grace for a sandwich but I won't eat it there because of the hippies. Damn hippies.
comicking:
Dude, you must not wait around long enough or something. She was there this last Monday. If you read her journal, you'll see that she was late getting there, so if you're there right at 6pm, you missed her. I'm guessing she wasn't there until after 7.. if I read the entry right... go later, like 7:30, b4 they start charging, but late enough so that if she's scheduled to be there, you can see her. Sorry to hear that you just go and aren't verifying at www.partytimeagency.com that she's working. She's never not gone to the 'toga to the best of my knowledge, when she's on the schedule. The schedule is up by 1pm Monday.
guy at work: "its not the size of the wave its the motion of the ocean.....heh,heh,heh"
me: "thats just something guys with little penises say...."
so, the pope died the other day.
now, i wanna be clear(before you all start hating me some more)that i in no way revel in his death. regardless of my own beliefs he was still a human being and he...
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me: "thats just something guys with little penises say...."
so, the pope died the other day.
now, i wanna be clear(before you all start hating me some more)that i in no way revel in his death. regardless of my own beliefs he was still a human being and he...
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oso:
good.
Congratulations!!!
Congratulations!!!
honeychile007:
Ok, I want to be part of the dead pool.
Am i the only one who just had an overwhelming urge to watch the last Dirty Harry movie of theat same name????
Am i the only one who just had an overwhelming urge to watch the last Dirty Harry movie of theat same name????
luckylittleshark had the best response.(simply: jerk)
natsuko seems to want to hurt me in ways that give me nightmares.
comicking wins, however, with the burger king moron dare..... i swear as soon as i can i'll get there and try to take a picture too.....
for now, it has been too long since ive been here.
no wait, make that too long since ive slept....
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natsuko seems to want to hurt me in ways that give me nightmares.
comicking wins, however, with the burger king moron dare..... i swear as soon as i can i'll get there and try to take a picture too.....
for now, it has been too long since ive been here.
no wait, make that too long since ive slept....
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pavlovsdog:
Coffee and Cigarettes.....only if I want to be put to sleep.
And I guess I shouldn't start the date by saying "Welcome to Port City Java can I take your order?"
Also I think the guy is married, BUT I SAW HIM FIRST!
Do you know you'd die quicker from lack of sleep than lack of food.
And I guess I shouldn't start the date by saying "Welcome to Port City Java can I take your order?"
Also I think the guy is married, BUT I SAW HIM FIRST!
Do you know you'd die quicker from lack of sleep than lack of food.
karaokejihad:
will a SASE be returned filled to the utter brim with syntax? 
so the other day im skating outside cause, well cause i could. we dont get many nice days up here and you gotta take what you can get. this guy is walking around and stops, stares and asks" mind if i watch?"
" yeah, kinda"
<turns to walk away> (mumbles) "ASS"
this is an example of why aine says i come off as a total...
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" yeah, kinda"
<turns to walk away> (mumbles) "ASS"
this is an example of why aine says i come off as a total...
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karaokejihad:
it'll be back in a couple days, just had to get my dick out. nahmean?
rosehips:
If I could go back to Minnesota I would. But I can't. Not yet. Too hard.
You don't seem like a jerk to me. Maybe you should try harder.
I am not sure I can beat comicking's suggestions for something dumb. Well not without possibly getting you killed.
We have something in common. I also tend to punch people without thinking of the consequences. Often in the throat. Usually they even deserve it.
You don't seem like a jerk to me. Maybe you should try harder.
I am not sure I can beat comicking's suggestions for something dumb. Well not without possibly getting you killed.
We have something in common. I also tend to punch people without thinking of the consequences. Often in the throat. Usually they even deserve it.
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comicking:
ooh, ooh. Did you give up the lovin' on Monday? I see a comment up there... 
omisan:
Damn. 
presenting......
THE 2005 LEFTY AWARDS
(applause)
best profile pic-aluz- cig and mag on the crapper
best hometown-blasfemme- uranus
best sign-anishka-jesus is coming. everyone look busy!!
best occupation-benni-full time cunt
best stats-karaokejihad-bruised liver and black heart
best body mods-clover-fuck bees!!!!
best bands-cobweb
best films-66crush
best artists-danielle
best vices-cobweb-smoking, coffee,...
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THE 2005 LEFTY AWARDS
(applause)
best profile pic-aluz- cig and mag on the crapper
best hometown-blasfemme- uranus
best sign-anishka-jesus is coming. everyone look busy!!
best occupation-benni-full time cunt
best stats-karaokejihad-bruised liver and black heart
best body mods-clover-fuck bees!!!!
best bands-cobweb
best films-66crush
best artists-danielle
best vices-cobweb-smoking, coffee,...
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karaokejihad:
i went to michigan for a vacation a couple summers ago. i just had a week of vacation time to use, so i went camping in the porcupine mountains, and drove up to the end. it's really a cool place to check out.
bete grise is cool. it all is.
^ presque isle river, west side of porcupine mtns park
^ cedar tree on the beach in copper harbor
bete grise is cool. it all is.
^ presque isle river, west side of porcupine mtns park
^ cedar tree on the beach in copper harbor
natsuko:
Whoo, what did you send me?
the hick factor up here is high...
heres some conversations that went down at work this week....
me: nascar is not a sport
hick 1:yes it is
me: its just driving in a circle, thats like saying playstation is a sport
hick 1: yeah, well, it takes alot of skill, agility, and coordination...
me: so does pissin in a pop bottle but thats not a...
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heres some conversations that went down at work this week....
me: nascar is not a sport
hick 1:yes it is
me: its just driving in a circle, thats like saying playstation is a sport
hick 1: yeah, well, it takes alot of skill, agility, and coordination...
me: so does pissin in a pop bottle but thats not a...
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gasmaskboy:
You get a high five from The Gasmaskboy by the way.
despairfactor:
I dunno how he would get doubles though... he doesn't have a scanner or anything, so I think I'm safe