thelefthand

its gonna be a long winter....


it seems like the season change always affects people in a weird way. i havent slept in two days. ive used up all my paints and brushes in a manic flurry of liquid color to canvas.
i think i may be drinking too much lately. im certainly not eating enough.
all my old freinds let the fire in thier eyes die and most went back to the drugs. some are now homeless gutter punks, harboring pet rats and worn ideals. sorely out of place and in need of sleep even more than me.
i havent even skated in at least a week which doesnt seem like much, but its what used to make me happy. i miss too many people and have too many secrets. im so tired.
ive got a million new pictures but niether the will nor ability to post them. i need a new phone line wether i like it or not. ive misspelled too many words to try and go back to correct them.my father has taken a turn for the worse and nothing seems like it used too.
so much has changed since ive seen her...my god, 5 years have passed.i need to find her and tell her so many things. how high fidelity of me.
i quit. i'll just go to work and try not to fall asleep again......



lefty