OOOooookayy..... it's been long enough since my last real update, and now it's time for me to bitch and whine on the internet for real. So if you want a blast of hot air, pull up a seat.
First off, I hate my fucking job. I know you're thinking, "no shit", right? Everybody does. But now I'm starting to realize how seriously I can't stand it. I dread every shift. I look at every table with utter contempt before they even sit down. Why? Because they are all cheap fucking dumbass bastards. Enough about them. The real problem is not only the customers, it's the lack of dignity my position provides me with. I am a waiter at 26 years old. This is a job for college students or for people who have real careers but need extra cash. This is a job where they have the balls to tell you "EVERYBODY works on EVERY holiday." I don't get benefits. I don't know my schedule more than a week in advance. I am never guaranteed vacation time. I am easily replaceable and do not feel needed. I am 26 years old, an age where most people have at least an entry level position in what is to become their career. And I lack a college degree or health insurance. It's depressing as hell because I know I have more potential than this. Call me egotistical but I know I am extremely intelligent and creative. And what do I have to show for it? Not much.
SOOoooo... I have been looking for a new job. I've applied at two banks so far. One has showed no interest at all. The other interviewed me and I didn't get it. Remember in my one update, when I said I aced the interview? There was nothing I could've said better. I was genuinely honest and still made myself sound like an ideal employee. But they were looking to hire "people with qualities more fitting to what this company is looking for". In other words, fuck off, you're a waiter, and we don't hire your kind here. Even though you have 3 years mortgage experience.
And more good news!!!!! Guess what?! Me and my girlfriend broke up!!!! My life keeps getting better and better I tell you what.
FOUR days after we decided to go steady, she sends me an EMAIL telling me she doesn't want to be my girlfriend because she is not ready for a serious relationship. She wanted to just "back up about 4 days" and continue dating the way we were. At first I was like hmm.... maybe?
But then I started thinking... this is how I got screwed over the last few times. I took whatever the girl said and went along with it. So this time I handled it differently.
She came out to visit and we ate at Carrabbas Italian restaurant. Very tasty chicken parm. But anyway. I basically told her... "I like you. I really really liked being with you, and you made me happy like nobody else had before. For the two months I've known you, this has been the best relationship I've ever had. So it hurts me that you threw it away so easily. We have had feelings for each other for a lot longer than 4 days, and we can not simply rewind past that.
"You want to continue dating me, but I don't think that is in my best interests. It would be very easy because I have a lot of fun with you, but you would have all the power in the relationship. Basically I would be waiting for you to MAYBE come around and want me back, and I refuse to simply wait for a maybe. For all I know you'll meet someone else and get married, or get bored of me, who knows. And I refuse to get screwed over like that AGAIN. It's happened to me before. So basically I don't think we should see each other at all."
And she took it really well. In fact she agreed with me about most of it. She told me she was proud of me for having the balls to say that, and I told her I didn't need her support DURING the breakup! LOL So she replied and said "what am I gonna do with you?"
And then simultaneously we both said "Nothing anymore!"
We had a nice long goodbye kiss, and parted on good terms. I might hate her a week from now, but right now I am just sad she's gone. I wish she would've given us a chance because we really could've been happy together. Fucking quitter.
First off, I hate my fucking job. I know you're thinking, "no shit", right? Everybody does. But now I'm starting to realize how seriously I can't stand it. I dread every shift. I look at every table with utter contempt before they even sit down. Why? Because they are all cheap fucking dumbass bastards. Enough about them. The real problem is not only the customers, it's the lack of dignity my position provides me with. I am a waiter at 26 years old. This is a job for college students or for people who have real careers but need extra cash. This is a job where they have the balls to tell you "EVERYBODY works on EVERY holiday." I don't get benefits. I don't know my schedule more than a week in advance. I am never guaranteed vacation time. I am easily replaceable and do not feel needed. I am 26 years old, an age where most people have at least an entry level position in what is to become their career. And I lack a college degree or health insurance. It's depressing as hell because I know I have more potential than this. Call me egotistical but I know I am extremely intelligent and creative. And what do I have to show for it? Not much.
SOOoooo... I have been looking for a new job. I've applied at two banks so far. One has showed no interest at all. The other interviewed me and I didn't get it. Remember in my one update, when I said I aced the interview? There was nothing I could've said better. I was genuinely honest and still made myself sound like an ideal employee. But they were looking to hire "people with qualities more fitting to what this company is looking for". In other words, fuck off, you're a waiter, and we don't hire your kind here. Even though you have 3 years mortgage experience.
And more good news!!!!! Guess what?! Me and my girlfriend broke up!!!! My life keeps getting better and better I tell you what.
FOUR days after we decided to go steady, she sends me an EMAIL telling me she doesn't want to be my girlfriend because she is not ready for a serious relationship. She wanted to just "back up about 4 days" and continue dating the way we were. At first I was like hmm.... maybe?
But then I started thinking... this is how I got screwed over the last few times. I took whatever the girl said and went along with it. So this time I handled it differently.
She came out to visit and we ate at Carrabbas Italian restaurant. Very tasty chicken parm. But anyway. I basically told her... "I like you. I really really liked being with you, and you made me happy like nobody else had before. For the two months I've known you, this has been the best relationship I've ever had. So it hurts me that you threw it away so easily. We have had feelings for each other for a lot longer than 4 days, and we can not simply rewind past that.
"You want to continue dating me, but I don't think that is in my best interests. It would be very easy because I have a lot of fun with you, but you would have all the power in the relationship. Basically I would be waiting for you to MAYBE come around and want me back, and I refuse to simply wait for a maybe. For all I know you'll meet someone else and get married, or get bored of me, who knows. And I refuse to get screwed over like that AGAIN. It's happened to me before. So basically I don't think we should see each other at all."
And she took it really well. In fact she agreed with me about most of it. She told me she was proud of me for having the balls to say that, and I told her I didn't need her support DURING the breakup! LOL So she replied and said "what am I gonna do with you?"
And then simultaneously we both said "Nothing anymore!"
We had a nice long goodbye kiss, and parted on good terms. I might hate her a week from now, but right now I am just sad she's gone. I wish she would've given us a chance because we really could've been happy together. Fucking quitter.
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Being a server sucks a lot, but at least you can get benefits at some restaurants... ( i.e., Olive Garden) Makes you feel better about waiting on people when you get benefits.