thelastasthmatic

well kids, i'm having kittens as we speak. well, elvis and his sister are having kittens. its complicated...

i've kinda drifted in a daze since i got home. work was uneventful. last night's practice was great. i slept till noon today, cut the grass, and finished an amazing book. now i'm cleaning house and listening to the squeal o' little cats.

i feel really alone now. not lonely, but without someone to trust and be close with. my last close friend(of 15+ years) here in town is strongly pushing the envelope of infidelity. he knows my experience with situations like this, but he seems to need my support in his hunt for pleasure( as in "you ass! why did you tell her i was married??) i am far from perfect. i learn my lessons,though, and need to be around people who endeavor to do the right thing.

the girl i've been dating the past couple o' months is equating physical interaction into commitment/romance. we haven't been together that much,but i am trying to avoid having sex with her completly. the spark isn't there. i need to tell her soon...

i've been reading more. the orchestra i play in is starting its new season. the pipe band is occupying more o' my time.i'm geting by in the groove of exercising, and soon i'll start going to school once a week. more time on me and less with other people.

hence,i feel really alone right now.

and i'm really hungry...