thekoser

hi i read your interesting post in the eastern religion group

you mention loss of integrity in that post

and i wonder what you mean by that

is that why you cut yourself loose?

Yes, but purely on personal level. There was nothing going on at work that was unethical or problematic on its own terms. This would be considered a "dream job" to 99.99% of the people in this profession (IT). But I came to the stunning realization yesterday (when I made this decision) that I simply can't do this work any longer. In fact, I already wasn't doing it - even up to my own standards. So even though I could have stayed and kept drawing a paycheck and getting by, it was a charade and I knew it. And that's where the question of integrity came in. Either I stayed and did a half-assed job in exchange for a nice fat paycheck, or I made the leap of faith to do something else (still not sure what) with a commitment that whatever it is, I will only undertake it with 100% of my talent, passion and enthusiasm.