Why do I keep hanging on to the memory of something that should be long forgotten? Why do I reach back for things that I can never have again? Why do I try to make things into something they are not? Why can't I let go of the past? Why do I try to shape the present into a simulacram of the past? Why do...
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comicking:
oh, I almost forgot... dont read my journal for today.. it'll probably just depress you further.. If you can read it without thinking about the meaning behind them, then go ahead... tell me if you recognize it (you're old enough, most on this site aren't to the best of my knowledge).
benni:
be filled with cheer. i heart you.
be filled with cheer. i heart you.It was 6 months ago, today, at right about this time, that I first met the coolest girl ever. Of course, I didn't know that at the time. I just knew she was beautiful and that she reminded me of a friend who had gone away.
Eventually, i got to know her for herself, I still think she is beautiful, but I also know she...
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Eventually, i got to know her for herself, I still think she is beautiful, but I also know she...
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delusion:
haha...did you see the young and horny thread after we were jackasses she edited it. dumb ass.
wish i could send you a laptop and a fresh pack.
wish i could send you a laptop and a fresh pack.
benni:
hey, tone it down! you'll tarnish my "bad boy" image! 
heart you too, sweetie...
hey, tone it down! you'll tarnish my "bad boy" image!
heart you too, sweetie...
Ok well I can't get the link right but I would like you all to tell me which Jhonen Vasquez character you are. I used to be happy noodl boy, but took it again answering based on my newly changed mood/attitude. I was very happy to find that now it says 'You are Jhonen Vasquez. You create all this fucked up shit" I feel like...
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comicking:
fine... fine... while I thought I might be nailbunny or even eff, I gues this is what I am.. Happy Noodle Boy.
[Edited on Jun 16, 2004 5:29PM]
[Edited on Jun 16, 2004 5:29PM]
comicking:
actually I just took it again, answering without thinking, and now I'm Filler Bunny I'm here to take up space!
So I just saw the movie the Stepford Wives. It was ok. I wasnt expecting a lot so I wasnt disappointed. The Irony for me was that one of the people I saw the movie with is pretty close to being a stepford wife. Trust me there is nothing appealing about it.
On another note, as some of you know my family has been making...
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benni:
feeling more 
now. just climbed outta bed. my head is killing me and i want pie. 
you too...
now. just climbed outta bed. my head is killing me and i want pie. you too...
akl:
youspokelikethisinathreadwhereyouaresupposedtouseoneword
hehe
hehe
ok stealing a few moves from some of my friends & acquaintances, sort of a tribute entry, cuz I got nothing but giddy love for my favorite ninja, and you are all probably tired of hearing about that.
Ok first off a tip of the hat to Misterjesus who has declared himself to be fucking awesome. Thanks for helping me to realize I am fucking...
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Ok first off a tip of the hat to Misterjesus who has declared himself to be fucking awesome. Thanks for helping me to realize I am fucking...
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ash:
I actually hate benni because I love her so much, lol~~! damn her for having that much power over us!
And I normally dont get jealous either, its my number one turn off .. but hey! You asked me to lie to you, so Im lying to you: yes I was jealous
You cant make me choose just ONE member to marry! NOT FAIR!! I love a LOT of members here. well Id choose you except I really dont even know what u look like or how we'd mesh in person ... but then agn I have only met ONE member here, and although we meshed well in person Im not sure Id marry him, lol! Id have to say xxfragilesoulxx because we're pretty close in age and have A LOT in common. I wouldnt take it seriously, no, we're too much alike. He's more like my brother. hahahah
I would like to say that Ive seen *someones* smile on this site, but I cant recall ever seeing ANYONE here smile!
I would want to hang out with YOU for the day so I could show u how cool I was, and u could do the same. We'd have to go to the art institute of chicago (where I take ALL my out of town visitors first) then to giordano's pizzaria (this would make u BAN all other pizza joints FORVER!! MUAHAHAHAH!!) then to a friends house to drink beer and smoke marajuana, then out to the clubs to poke fun at all the other chi town ppl who arent as cool as us. (I gave this way too much thought Im afraid) Oh yeah .. and who is scary here? benni of course. I dont like it when a person has that much power over me, lol!
And I normally dont get jealous either, its my number one turn off .. but hey! You asked me to lie to you, so Im lying to you: yes I was jealous
You cant make me choose just ONE member to marry! NOT FAIR!! I love a LOT of members here. well Id choose you except I really dont even know what u look like or how we'd mesh in person ... but then agn I have only met ONE member here, and although we meshed well in person Im not sure Id marry him, lol! Id have to say xxfragilesoulxx because we're pretty close in age and have A LOT in common. I wouldnt take it seriously, no, we're too much alike. He's more like my brother. hahahah
I would like to say that Ive seen *someones* smile on this site, but I cant recall ever seeing ANYONE here smile!
I would want to hang out with YOU for the day so I could show u how cool I was, and u could do the same. We'd have to go to the art institute of chicago (where I take ALL my out of town visitors first) then to giordano's pizzaria (this would make u BAN all other pizza joints FORVER!! MUAHAHAHAH!!) then to a friends house to drink beer and smoke marajuana, then out to the clubs to poke fun at all the other chi town ppl who arent as cool as us. (I gave this way too much thought Im afraid) Oh yeah .. and who is scary here? benni of course. I dont like it when a person has that much power over me, lol!
pb:
yeah i like doing it sometimes...but i don't want to do it for a career, though retireing as a major or lt colonel is some awesome pay for the rest of your life...
i just don't want to be the type of person some people become after 20 years in the military...in my case it will have to be 26.
i'm in a real conundrum right now because i know its a really good job and loaded with benefits and on top of it all i get to be a part of something non-commerical and actually somewhat worthwhile...eh whatever. i have 2 years to make that decision....
-pb
i just don't want to be the type of person some people become after 20 years in the military...in my case it will have to be 26.
i'm in a real conundrum right now because i know its a really good job and loaded with benefits and on top of it all i get to be a part of something non-commerical and actually somewhat worthwhile...eh whatever. i have 2 years to make that decision....
-pb
well I think I am almost back to my old self, I was hoping to get back to something a little better but I guess I better not push my luck. I have also decided I really need to get over the ex best friend. It's not going to be easy for me, so I am going to ask for the help of all the...
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comicking:
I cant say I miss the "I hate my life" endings though
Oh, but they're coming back, just you wait... hehehe
comicking:
I toldja... they're baaaack! 
So it has been about a week since my last journal entry. Didn't mean to go that long but things got busy and I didnt have much to say. Nothing to see here. Move along.
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nex_flamma:
Well, some of my characters have met a rather Grizzly fate. But luckily, for fans of Terry, he has only been retired to the chicken coop. I make no guarantees as both God and myself work our magic in myserious ways, but Terry may one day return when his services are once again needed by humanity.
drstinkypants:
no. no reward
no. no reward
I actually slept more than 4 hours last night. For the first time this month. Unfortunately it was not dreamless sleep. Normally I don't mind dreaming. I can usually lucid dream and in my dreams at least everything always seemed to go my way. But not lately.
Last night my dreams went through a roll call of all the people I have lost. My best...
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Last night my dreams went through a roll call of all the people I have lost. My best...
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iyce:
i see what you are saying. i basically miss my ex as well and i know he isn't in love with me anymore and it hurts. and then i am constantly trying to keep myself busy, and i'll chat with people on this site, but coming to the site, and as you say..."looking at all the beautiful people" just makes me want to yell at God for leaving me out of the "beauty realm" because my relationship ended over beauty. it hurts like hell...that's why im writing to you about it and i can't stop crying....i know me feeling down has more to do with myself personally and i just feel so inadequate in life...like i'm not needed or not wanted....it's scary....i'm sorry to vent, but im feeling pretty bad...
iyce:
awweee..you are so sweet. thanks for being here. hopefully this day will be a better day. i hate feeling this way. i just want to be happy or at least be at peace....
hopefully this day will be a better day. i hate feeling this way. i just want to be happy or at least be at peace....Damn I am tired. Only slept about an hour again last night. Would love to play hooky again but work is already piling up. Work sucks. although mostly just my first job. Second one still pretty cool. Damn running late too. Supposed to be at work at 7. damn. Gonna be a long day.
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tigerpig:
chris would date someone he couldnt talk to, no matter how big her breasts were.
she actually seems like a nice girl. i saw photos of them hanging out at home and aside from that fact that she looks like a magazine, it all seems really normal. chilling on the couch like regular people....
i cant imagine playmates being ordinary.
she actually seems like a nice girl. i saw photos of them hanging out at home and aside from that fact that she looks like a magazine, it all seems really normal. chilling on the couch like regular people....
i cant imagine playmates being ordinary.
bracket:
i just wana be free..........................................
but i cant.
im just to needy for not havin someone near me when i wake up.
i wish i could.
im in relationship since i was 17.
yes....sometimes i do feel like i missed somthing.........
but i dono.
dammit.
but i cant.
im just to needy for not havin someone near me when i wake up.
i wish i could.
im in relationship since i was 17.
yes....sometimes i do feel like i missed somthing.........
but i dono.
dammit.
today. Not exactly sure why. But I am. Unfortunately happiness tends to make me dull. I got nothing else. Have a great day. I heart you all. Well most of you. Ok just the Ninja & the Scribe. But I like the rest of you. Well most of you.
update 7:45 (sg time) too happy to go to my job
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benni:
beh. i don't comment for you nearly enough, but i'm working on it. heart you!
benni:
hope to see you soon.