well i was thinking of going back to work today. But I dont really have to and I still seem to need the painkillers so I think I wont. I am feeling a lot better than I was though. Thanks to all of you who have sent your kind thoughts and get well wishes. I think lately the worst part is I cant find a comfortable position to sleep in. I am so damd tired.

On a completely unrelated note. One of the women in my life has been surprisingly kind and thoughtful during all of this. Why cant she be that way all the time? Another is extremely angry with me and I cant really understand why. A third has apparently forgiven me even though I dont deserve it. And finally the last one, the one I seem to find myself caring the most about lately, well, i dont have a clue what she is thinking. That girl is an utter mystery to me.