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thejuanupsman

Minneapolis, MN.

Member Since 2004

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Saturday Jun 19, 2004

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Why do I keep hanging on to the memory of something that should be long forgotten? Why do I reach back for things that I can never have again? Why do I try to make things into something they are not? Why can't I let go of the past? Why do I try to shape the present into a simulacram of the past? Why do I want what will never be? Why can't I be happy with what I have?

I miss her. I want to call her. But I know that would be a mistake.
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comicking:
oh, I almost forgot... dont read my journal for today.. it'll probably just depress you further.. If you can read it without thinking about the meaning behind them, then go ahead... tell me if you recognize it (you're old enough, most on this site aren't to the best of my knowledge).
Jun 19, 2004
benni:
frown be filled with cheer. i heart you.
Jun 19, 2004

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