I am going to start with something shitty and finish with something cool...
OH MY FRICKEN GOD I HATE BANKS AND STUFF!!!!
I have done everything I can to never fuck up my credit. I have never had a late payment, overwithdrawn, or ANYTHING bad to my accounts.
I was doing some impulse buying when I was getting some tickets today and my credit card got fucking DECLINED. As I stared at the lady in disbelief she looked at me like I was trying to pull something over on her as I asked her to try again...It was complete bullshit.
I then frantically drove home to check my accounts. It shows that they never recieved a payment last month and they charged me $35 late charges and raised my APR!!!! I then checked out my bank account and it shows that the money was withdrawn, sent, and to be recieved before it due. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!
I called my credit card and they said they don't have it, so then I called my bank to inquire and they said they will get back to me in 2-3 business days. So now I sit and wait in fucking shity confusion as to what act of God just left my asshole bleeding...
Anyways, today is a good day none the less
Today is Jaymes B-day! We are goign to this kick ass Japanese Steak house thingy, you know those cool ones where they do the knive shows and cook your stuff at the table. I love that shit. And you can get these awesome mixed drinks in little Buddha mugs and boats and stuff that you get to keep
Also, I bought Friday the 13th parts 1-8 on DVD today haha. I love those movies but they usually are like $35 each and they were $9.99 each! So I did some crazy impulse buying and was going to put it on my credit card but....well you already read about that. Atleast I had some money in the bank to buy it with so I didn't look like a complete dumb ass at the counter.
Anyways. Good times tonight. This is a really long post so I will say my goodbyes now. Following this is the first entry into my new semi-stream of conciousness journal I have been doing during classes. They are rather long, and I had originally planned to post the first two today, but due to its length I will only post one. I will put up the other tomorrow, so read on if you feel it.
Keep on rockin'
-J
Entry 1 Vulnerable.
Time for pointless ramblings....
I hate people who complain about not getting A's, or even worst A-'s. Fuck you! When are people going to understand that what you get or learn from a class has nothing to do with what grade you recieve...
Maybe I just hate people. The normal everyday chit-chat of normal society hurts my brain. The endless circle of "how are you"'s and empty communication plagues me. You don't care about my life, what I did last night, How I am doing, BLAH BLAH BLAH, once again, fuck you!
Sometimes I wonder what made this change in me over the last few years. Was it love? Maybe I simply opened my eyes. If it is the latter, I wish I could find someone else like that to talk to. We aren't children, no one is innocent, and nothing is going to change unless you change it. You are the moving force in your life. Maby would argue God is the moving force, but I think it is the other way around. God is not standing behind you kicking you in the ass telling you where to go. You decide where you go, you fuck. Wake up! If God is your force, you are so blinded by faith that you don't notice you went to him, not the other way around. So why are you so fucking stupid...
School now is almost unbearable. It fucking disgusts me. I wish I had the heart to tell these "kids" that just because you graduate and have a degree doens't mean everything is going to be better. Everyone thinks that when they graduate everything works out, you have money, its time to enjoy life. Why wait to enjoy life?
This is the question I have been asking myself a lot lately. I think it requires a bit more than simple contemplation. It required me to ask myself a question that people don't seriously ask themselves very often. What do I need to be happy? This answer does not start with "maybe," "I feel," or "I think." It doesn't start with anything. This is something you just know. Maybe school and everyone pisses me off because I have found happiness. Maybe it is because I am doing things that take away from my happiness. I think I am about to change that...
We are the moving force in our lives, and no one else. Nothing is going to happen unless you make it happen. If you want to be a sheep and spend you life sleeping awake go ahead, but I am running with scissors and eyes wide open. Love is vulnerability.
...and once again, fuck you.
OH MY FRICKEN GOD I HATE BANKS AND STUFF!!!!
I have done everything I can to never fuck up my credit. I have never had a late payment, overwithdrawn, or ANYTHING bad to my accounts.
I was doing some impulse buying when I was getting some tickets today and my credit card got fucking DECLINED. As I stared at the lady in disbelief she looked at me like I was trying to pull something over on her as I asked her to try again...It was complete bullshit.
I then frantically drove home to check my accounts. It shows that they never recieved a payment last month and they charged me $35 late charges and raised my APR!!!! I then checked out my bank account and it shows that the money was withdrawn, sent, and to be recieved before it due. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!
I called my credit card and they said they don't have it, so then I called my bank to inquire and they said they will get back to me in 2-3 business days. So now I sit and wait in fucking shity confusion as to what act of God just left my asshole bleeding...
Anyways, today is a good day none the less
Today is Jaymes B-day! We are goign to this kick ass Japanese Steak house thingy, you know those cool ones where they do the knive shows and cook your stuff at the table. I love that shit. And you can get these awesome mixed drinks in little Buddha mugs and boats and stuff that you get to keep
Also, I bought Friday the 13th parts 1-8 on DVD today haha. I love those movies but they usually are like $35 each and they were $9.99 each! So I did some crazy impulse buying and was going to put it on my credit card but....well you already read about that. Atleast I had some money in the bank to buy it with so I didn't look like a complete dumb ass at the counter.
Anyways. Good times tonight.
This is a really long post so I will say my goodbyes now. Following this is the first entry into my new semi-stream of conciousness journal I have been doing during classes. They are rather long, and I had originally planned to post the first two today, but due to its length I will only post one. I will put up the other tomorrow, so read on if you feel it.
Keep on rockin'
-J
Entry 1 Vulnerable.
Time for pointless ramblings....
I hate people who complain about not getting A's, or even worst A-'s. Fuck you! When are people going to understand that what you get or learn from a class has nothing to do with what grade you recieve...
Maybe I just hate people. The normal everyday chit-chat of normal society hurts my brain. The endless circle of "how are you"'s and empty communication plagues me. You don't care about my life, what I did last night, How I am doing, BLAH BLAH BLAH, once again, fuck you!
Sometimes I wonder what made this change in me over the last few years. Was it love? Maybe I simply opened my eyes. If it is the latter, I wish I could find someone else like that to talk to. We aren't children, no one is innocent, and nothing is going to change unless you change it. You are the moving force in your life. Maby would argue God is the moving force, but I think it is the other way around. God is not standing behind you kicking you in the ass telling you where to go. You decide where you go, you fuck. Wake up! If God is your force, you are so blinded by faith that you don't notice you went to him, not the other way around. So why are you so fucking stupid...
School now is almost unbearable. It fucking disgusts me. I wish I had the heart to tell these "kids" that just because you graduate and have a degree doens't mean everything is going to be better. Everyone thinks that when they graduate everything works out, you have money, its time to enjoy life. Why wait to enjoy life?
This is the question I have been asking myself a lot lately. I think it requires a bit more than simple contemplation. It required me to ask myself a question that people don't seriously ask themselves very often. What do I need to be happy? This answer does not start with "maybe," "I feel," or "I think." It doesn't start with anything. This is something you just know. Maybe school and everyone pisses me off because I have found happiness. Maybe it is because I am doing things that take away from my happiness. I think I am about to change that...
We are the moving force in our lives, and no one else. Nothing is going to happen unless you make it happen. If you want to be a sheep and spend you life sleeping awake go ahead, but I am running with scissors and eyes wide open. Love is vulnerability.
...and once again, fuck you.
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i know, i hate fucking banks and their fees and stuff. i've done my best to keep nothing in a bank account unless it needs to be there for bill payment etc...nor do i use credit (with the exception of my car payment). i will not fall into that cycle of debt that has overrun this nation.
Japanese grub--yummy. it does appear that you love food, most of your post include the day's nutrtion intake.
approx 40 more pages to read. i may just write you a thesis on it (what with all the time i have on my hands)
-me