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Update: Note to self...
Never start drinking after a closing shift at 1 a.m. when you have to open the next morning. I was by myself, not tired, and downed a bottle of jagemeister that was in the freeze. I slept like a rock, but thought I was going to die when my alarm went off. Work totally dragged on and on and on and on...you get the point. At work, hungry, no customers and watching the clock slag on.
Oh well, I am home now; food, maybe nap, some school work, maybe some guitar, and then the crazy Nuge show tonight
-J
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Howdy fellow lifers.
I just got off work, and I have to open in the morning
Oh well, thats just part of it all I guess.
Is it a bad thing that I just started drinking when I have to be back at work in a few hours? Either way...too late now
I closed last night too, but when I got off work, I had a really interesting experience. My girl had come over and was waiting for me when I came home...it was nothing sexual so don't get excited bad monkeys!
She was falling asleep in my bed when I came into my room. I can't go to bed when I first get home from work so I decided to grab a bite to eat and pop in a movie. I put in A Clockwork Orange and began to chill. After I finished my food, my girl snuggled up under my arm in bed and started watching the movie with me. Not to far into it she fell asleep...but it was different. I am always a happy person. I smile, laugh, and do my best to have a great time while spreading my joy upon everyone, but last night was just odd. I felt so weird with her there under my arm. We have been together for the better part of almost 4 years now so this was nothing new sleeping together, but it was just so odd.
Was this a taste of things to come? Was this what happy really feels like? I almost started crying . It felt so warm, so real, so right. I know I would have started crying if not for the fear of waking her up and ruining the moment. A moment I shared with my heart...
What did I do to deserve this epiphany that so warmly touched my soul? What can I do to make sure I feel like that all the time? It was so wonderful I can now spend the rest of my life just looking forward with hope to the chance that I might experience this again.
As I close my eyes, with a smile upon my face
I can sleep knowing that hope is not dead,
that love still exists for my soul,
that I still have faith...
-J
Update: Note to self...
Never start drinking after a closing shift at 1 a.m. when you have to open the next morning. I was by myself, not tired, and downed a bottle of jagemeister that was in the freeze. I slept like a rock, but thought I was going to die when my alarm went off. Work totally dragged on and on and on and on...you get the point. At work, hungry, no customers and watching the clock slag on.
Oh well, I am home now; food, maybe nap, some school work, maybe some guitar, and then the crazy Nuge show tonight
-J
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Howdy fellow lifers.
I just got off work, and I have to open in the morning
Oh well, thats just part of it all I guess.
Is it a bad thing that I just started drinking when I have to be back at work in a few hours? Either way...too late now
I closed last night too, but when I got off work, I had a really interesting experience. My girl had come over and was waiting for me when I came home...it was nothing sexual so don't get excited bad monkeys!
She was falling asleep in my bed when I came into my room. I can't go to bed when I first get home from work so I decided to grab a bite to eat and pop in a movie. I put in A Clockwork Orange and began to chill. After I finished my food, my girl snuggled up under my arm in bed and started watching the movie with me. Not to far into it she fell asleep...but it was different. I am always a happy person. I smile, laugh, and do my best to have a great time while spreading my joy upon everyone, but last night was just odd. I felt so weird with her there under my arm. We have been together for the better part of almost 4 years now so this was nothing new sleeping together, but it was just so odd.
Was this a taste of things to come? Was this what happy really feels like? I almost started crying . It felt so warm, so real, so right. I know I would have started crying if not for the fear of waking her up and ruining the moment. A moment I shared with my heart...
What did I do to deserve this epiphany that so warmly touched my soul? What can I do to make sure I feel like that all the time? It was so wonderful I can now spend the rest of my life just looking forward with hope to the chance that I might experience this again.
As I close my eyes, with a smile upon my face
I can sleep knowing that hope is not dead,
that love still exists for my soul,
that I still have faith...
-J
i was so happy to read about your intimate moment. reading it made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside, as well as lonely. but i will not give up. i too, will keep faith that perhaps a feeling of closeness will once again return to me.
on another note, i pose a question to you...in an attempt to determine what phase of a relationship i'm in with a certain fellow, i asked if we were just having casual sex? the answer given to me was, "if we weren't having sex, we would be hanging out casually." WTF? any insight on this? i thought females were supposed to be the enigmas of this world, not males.
hope all is well...
-me