thegreatestfall

Well it's been a few weeks now and I still have no job and I have no prospects at all... I have sent out 70+ resumes and I am being told that because of the declining markets there are just no jobs to be had. This does not come as good news. And even more disheartening I have been watching a lot of the news (Because i have nothing better to do) and they are talking about another depression and how there are no safety measures in place to keep another one from happening. So it is not looking good for me finding a job. I have been able to pay my rent and some of my bills but my gas bill is just to high so it looks like it is going to get cut off so lets hope it gets warm soon so I do not freeze.

My mom is back on drugs and she is back on them in full force. I have stopped talking to her which sucks because she is the only person in my family who gives two shits about me and now I will have no contact with her. So I now have 0 family and that is just sad because i get so jealous of people when they talk about their mom or dad. I didn't have that kind of stuff growing up and I really wish I had. And my mom came back into my life and it was great for awhile but I just cant deal with addiction it is not something i would deal with for anyone.

School is out for a few weeks so that will at least give me a slight break from that and when i get my refund check from school that will help pay my bills for another month to keep me afloat. I was going to take out some student loans to keep me going but I have bad credit so thats probably a no go and if there is a place out there that will give bad credit loans I do not know where it is.

So that is the news of my life hopefully things will take a turn for the better soon