thegreatestfall

Well I have fucking had it. My mother who has been sober for 2 years now is back on fucking drugs. I will not deal with it. I spent 26 years of my life trying to help her with her problems and I thought two years ago it finally paid off... And it did for 2 years but now she is back on them and I just can't do it anymore.

Over the past 2 years I have finally been able to focus on my own life and get it moving along the right path and now this shit has to come back and fuck with everything I have accomplished. I just can't do it... I love my mother but I just can't deal with addiction again. I have never done drugs and I never will so why should i have to deal with anyone elses addiction? This really fucking sucks bad I am just not sure what to do I want to help my mom but I am afraid she is just a lost cause and i cant deal with it now I have way to much going on in my own life...

I am single and working in a comic book store because I devoted most of my adult life to helping her and now that I am starting to get my life back on track I jsut can't deal with it... Does it make me an awful person? I am sick and tired of life always kicking me back down when things seem like they are getting better. Just once I wish someone would help me out instead of me always being the being the helping hand...

You will alll have to forgive me for my lame rant i just needed to get it off my chest.