sometimes i just want to shoot myself for not doing things a certain way, but i deal with it and accept how i do things anyway. For whatever reason i didnt step up, not sure why. scared? cautious? clueless? maybe, but why rub something in if you didnt seem so interested anyways. Fuck if you want something ask for it, i didnt so its my loss. Disappointed i am, but so has been the last 9 months of my life. Fuck......fuck....fuck.
allegory:
What in the HELL are you talking about so vaguely here? 