thegoatlord

*sigh* kinda depressed again. its not the weather, or any other insignifcant thing like that. its more the fact im tired of wasting my days away, and not having anybody of the female persuasion interested in me. i wouldnt say im the type to get depressed easily, so its a rare occurance for me to really be down. i mean, yeah, i hate the world and the way people are. but thats two totally different things.

anyways, my plans for the entire weekend were completely shot to shit. id have had more fun pouring glue in my eyes than do what i did. and if youre curious what i did, heres a recap. last night i.. hung out with the usual friends, didnt get drunk enough to be happy with myself, and ended up sleeping next to a frigid bitch. dont get me wrong, i have deep respect for women. but not this one.. meh. and tonight, the person that was supposed to come up didnt and completely avoided my calls. fucking bastage.if you dont want to hang out with me and mine, then at least have the common courtesy to fucking call and say so. ack! that sounds like something a couple months ago!

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well uh.. other than that, i should hopefully be getting the driving job iw as told id get forever fuck ago. if i play my cards right, ill be set up fat. if not, then fuck it.. ive lived on the checks i get now for about 2 years. so might as well live the same lifestyle.

again, i say, i need to get out of kokomo and go to a nice dorm style college somewhere far away from here. im tired of living in, essentially, a stagnant oasis of shit.

so, i close this with one thing on my mind.

Why am i too young to die?