So I feel an extreme amount of relief tonight. I spent some time with my girl, or ex-girl, or whatever and it went really well. I had been really worried that she was going to take this break up really hard, and that it would really damage her. Yet, she seemd really good and we got along very well and were able to talk frankly about what lines are now being drawn and how that affects our now evolving relationship and all that stuff. I guess I was just really happy to see her happy and also to know now that I may not have her as a girlfriend anymore, but I'm not losing my best friend. It's really kind of strange to be the one who initiates abreakup and still feels so much pain and stress about it, although tonight helped a ton to ease many of my worries. The next big problem to worry about is that I think she may be the last woman on earth who will ever want to have sex with me. Oh well, I guess I'll deal with that as it comes. Oh, that was kind of a pun! Whatever. Life is so funny and irrational and weird and wonderful and painful and beautiful. Who invented all this life shit? I'd like to know, because I have some questions. Anyway, all is well for now, so I think I'll go to bed happy. Good night, world. Love ya'. 