So, yeah, things have changed a little bit since my last "Self-Hate" post. We talked again last night, and we're back together. Sort of.
The first night I confronted her about her feelings, she suggested that maybe we needed a break. I immediately equated this to "It's over, chump.", and left. It was a natural assumption, at least for me. But, I was wrong. For the first time ever, I was wrong about the status of a relationship.
We talked last night, and she told me that she just felt we got a bit more serious quicker than she wanted or was used to, considering where she's at in life and what she still wants to do. And to tell you the truth, I feel the same. Well, about the wanting to do more with my life part at least. I still need to do things that if they pan out, will require my utmost dedication and may require me to be on the road a bit. But ultimately, I do want a serious monogamous relationship with someone, but maybe right now isn't the time for that.
She still wants to be "involved", but not exclusively. And it has nothing to do with seeing other people, but more of request to return to the relaxed, laid-back way we were a few months ago.
Not feeling like you need to call the other person every day.
Not having to ask if it's okay to go out with friends, especially ones of the opposite sex.
Quite possibly, a win-win situation.
Maybe. We'll see.
The first night I confronted her about her feelings, she suggested that maybe we needed a break. I immediately equated this to "It's over, chump.", and left. It was a natural assumption, at least for me. But, I was wrong. For the first time ever, I was wrong about the status of a relationship.
We talked last night, and she told me that she just felt we got a bit more serious quicker than she wanted or was used to, considering where she's at in life and what she still wants to do. And to tell you the truth, I feel the same. Well, about the wanting to do more with my life part at least. I still need to do things that if they pan out, will require my utmost dedication and may require me to be on the road a bit. But ultimately, I do want a serious monogamous relationship with someone, but maybe right now isn't the time for that.
She still wants to be "involved", but not exclusively. And it has nothing to do with seeing other people, but more of request to return to the relaxed, laid-back way we were a few months ago.
Not feeling like you need to call the other person every day.
Not having to ask if it's okay to go out with friends, especially ones of the opposite sex.
Quite possibly, a win-win situation.
Maybe. We'll see.
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boundcreature:
paul has to meet with his landlord at 7pm, so we need to leave to meet paul by 7pm, be on the road towards rhode island by 7:20 or so... if you can get to my house by 7pm at the latest, we're golden...
aegiswings:
I just realized I never commented on this journal. It's awesome to hear that you've worked things out. I guess things do work out well sometimes 
. Keep us updated.
. Keep us updated.