thefox

Hey, dudes.

I've been kinda down, lately - nothing heavy, just kind of in a funk. There's no good reason for it. I think it's partly me craving change, and partly me being afraid of change... and there are lots of changes going on, right now, and coming up in the near future:

** I graduated, after 7 years of identifying myself as a college student.

** My mother passed away, which happened nearly a year ago, but is starting to become more apparent with wedding plans coming up. (As annoying as she was, she would have been happy with any wedding I chose, instead of desperately forcing herself on me in an attempt to be involved.)

** I'm getting married (!) and the date is rapidly approaching. (7 months away...)

** I will hopefully be moving this summer, into a rental house. I've never rented a house, before, and I'm excited at the idea of having more space and a yard (and my dog back).

** I'm applying for my first real job - I've worked full time and had benefits and all that, but this is a career... something I actually want to do and am looking forward to. It's not just a paycheck, which is a little strange.

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I'm excited about each one of the things on this list, except the part about missing my mother and my stepmother (who is a really wonderful and supportive person, most of the time). Mostly, I just need to get off my ass and start enjoying life, again. I'm slowly coming out of that "ho-hum routine" shell, and starting to make small changes that lead to my longer-term goals. Life is good, I just need some encouragement and support and a fun, low-stess summer.