thefox

I suppose I'm on an upswing, now. Which is good because I have to:

* Plan for the week

* Organize my shit for the week

* Write my rsum and cover letter

* Make copies of my PRAXIS II scores

* Do laundry

* Start asking people for letters of recommendation (and figure out how each district wants it formatted)

* Start on the application for employment (luckily, there's just one for all of NC)

* Figure out what all the districts I'm applying to require in the application

* Write up a short, friendly letter to my principal asking her to drop in on me this week (because I desperately want her to observe me so she'll write me a letter of rec.)

* Shave my legs

* Paint my nails

* Practice doing my hair for the upcoming job fair

* Get an employment application for my summer job

I'm sure there are other things I need to do, but this will probably not get finished, today. The job fair isn't until Tuesday, so I mostly just need to get the planning done, today, and everything else can be finished, tomorrow. I can't believe I'm done student teaching in six weeks. And then I graduate in eight weeks. In two months, I'll be done.

I started college in 2001. At the time, I was fresh out of high school and desperately trying to get out of Fayetteville. I knew I wanted to be a teacher, and didn't much care where I went to school. I chose UNC because that's where my boyfriend at the time was going. Stupid reason, but it's worked out okay. I even got a rather prestigious teaching scholarship to help pay for school.

I gained weight, struggled with school, was diagnosed with depression, then anxiety disorder, then ADHD... I've been off and on two medications... I've been through three relationships and quite a few flings. I took two years off of school because I was failing out and didn't want to face it. I came back to school in Fall 2006, and went back on my meds this past fall. My mother died. My Dad and Stepmom moved far away. I got my dog and then had to give him up.

I've made some of the most lasting friendships, here... but then I've also lost some friends that I always thought I would have in my life. I've cried a lot... probably more than I've laughed.

And that's life, I suppose. But it's odd to think that throughout all this, college was my main focus. Graduation has been the thing I've aimed for since freshman year of high school, maybe sooner. Get out of Fayetteville, and stay out of Fayetteville was my focus before that. What's my focus, now? I mean, once I have that degree in hand and have the job... it's going to be odd to have "live life and enjoy yourself" as my focus.

I'm sure I'll have things to strive for - but graduating is a huge thing. Much bigger than I thought it would be. And I'm a bit overwhelmed with the job search. I own a suit and fancy rsum paper. I even tried the suit on and it looks all professional and shit.

I just hope I get a job that I enjoy at a school that I like. I hope my kids next year are challenging, but not overly frustrating. And I hope that arguments with parents are minimal. Mostly, I hope that my principal is involved, passionate, and flexible. And I hope I have kids like my little Andrea in my class. Because that little girl gets my clock ticking - I so want to take her home.

Alright, then... enough time wasted. Enjoy your Sunday, loves...