thefox

<whine>Guys... I think I'm sick again!</whine>

Schiavona and K_Rex - take lots of vitamin C and get plenty of rest, because I very well might have something new... which is just not fair - I swear I thought I was done with the last cold when we came over, yesterday, but I think I'm on an upswing... meaning I've probably gotten something new from my kids. I really hope you don't get sick, but I super promise to bring you soup and magazines if you come down with this cold. Grr...

I hate getting sick twice in a row, especially when I start feeling better for a day, and then WHAM! Back on my ass for another week. It's just mean.

In other news, the fact that I'm engaged has kind of sunk in. The reality of a wedding being a much bigger affair than I want it to be kinda hammered it home for me. Not that I don't want my wedding to be awesome and memorable, but there's a lot of work that goes into it, even for a simple ceremony, and I fought that reality all week. I think the only way I'm going to enjoy the planning and the wedding is if I succumb to the fact that I will actually have to put effort, planning, and money into it. Which really isn't a bad thing, I just haven't really ever had to think about planning a wedding in a concrete way, so it was a bit overwhelming, at first. I still refuse to give up my demands, whatever they turn out to be.

The fact of the matter is that LittleFierceOne and I are really perfect for each other, and anything we put together will be very much "us," which I think will be really cool and fun for all. Besides, the celebration is a very small part of the whole thing - from the moment he asked and I said "yes" (or nodded rapidly ), a tangible commitment to each other started. Which is a very wonderful thing. The wedding doesn't change anything, it just makes it "official" and gives us an excuse to throw a party. I just kind of wish there weren't so many expectations for weddings...

Anyway, enough about all that. We have plenty of time to plan a wedding, but right now we have limited to time to clean, do homework, etc... so I really just need to push that to the back burner, since it's really not top priority. Starting tomorrow, I have to write a five-week unit that I'll be teaching in March-April. I am not looking forward to this at all, because we have three days to write it - this means that tomorrow, Tuesday, and Thursday I have to sit down from 8am-5pm and FOCUS. Despite being sick, engaged, having a messy house, etc... there are no extensions on this, and my supervisor will be checking on us daily by phone and email. I'll probably go to an undisclosed location that is quiet and devoid of people or anything interesting in hopes of actually being productive... but I'm more than a little worried that I'll get sidetracked or have trouble getting started. I have to write 25 days' worth of lesson plans - probably over 100, total - in all subjects.

It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to write them in a specific format, but our supervisor insists we do it her way. I just need to get over my anxiety, tonight, and start getting my brain into planning mode, so I'll have some loose ideas when I sit down to work, tomorrow morning. It'll all be okay, and I'm sure my unit will be fantastic, it's just a bit overwhelming at the moment.

On the bright side, Sudafed makes me drowsy, but it also helps me focus. Not sure how that works, but hey - I'll take it. And, as soon as this unit is finished and planned, all I have to do is teach it, and that's the fun part!

Hope you're all enjoying your "holiday" weekend...