thefabpersian

fuck fuck fuckity fuck fuck

that is what I have degenerated into

so in my previous post, if you didn't care to read it (not that I care, these journal entries are more for me than you) I pointed out how I haven't had a crush of substantial worth in about a year

well now that I think I may be developing one, I can't stop thinking how insignificant I am compared to this girl and how she would never in a lifetime want to be associated with me as more than a friend (which is what we are now)

for starters, here's a few reasons why:
I'm fat
I'm hairy
I bitch and complain
I'm annoying
I don't know when to stop
I have no confidence
I second guess everything
I'm indecisive
I'm not particularly attractive
I'm very reserved
I allow my parents to keep me down
I'm a stickler for rules
I'm always angry

and the list goes on...

nothing like an amazing girl like her to bring out my worst, eh?

the only solace I get from my life anymore is that maybe, just maybe, I was put her to be miserable all the time so that it balances out all the happiness in the world...

gay, I know, well, fuck you





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