theduke

Ellie and I are back together! Now, I'm of the variety that when I hear of a couple getting back together I'm always careful to take a pinch of salt. If it is such a good thing then why did you break up in the first place? Good point, and I've been thinking about this a lot and finally come to this conclusion:

Basically we were afraid.

She was getting scared about being in a relationship so early into uni and I was worried that I'd get hurt, because she gets so much male attention I thought she'd leave me. When she said she wanted to take it down a few notches and wasn't sure if she wanted a relationship I thought it meant she was getting bored and wanted to see other people. I pushed for the split because I thought it was better to get it over with now than getting screwed over further down the line.

I made a mistake.

I've been fucking miserable the last two weeks. I've pushed Ellie away when all she wanted to do was chill out. We had a good long chat. Basically the fact I wanted to go on dates and do coupley stuff freaked her out a bit. She just wants to hang out in the bar and have regular sex.

What was my fucking problem?!!

I have decided I can do this and I've feel greater than I have done in a long time. She's got her friends, I've got mine. We see each other every other day and although I'd like to tie her up to be my wanton sex slave I've got to come to terms she is a human being with an active social life. The fact I don't have to be dragged along to all her crappy cheesy pop nites is fantastic, and then she stumbles into the bedroom drunk and horny. I get the benefits without the hassle, I think I can get used to this...