theduke

Oh it's weird, it's really really weird!

I broke up with her. Over two months ago now but she's got a date and it's really weirding me out

I guess it's because I know the guy, I met him when I was going out with her, he was an old friend of hers and had a girlfriend at the time but they are both single now so fair enough.

I can't describe what I'm feeling, I've seen girls since, and managed to maintain a decent friendship with my ex but... Oh what the hell is this feeling!?!?!?!

I guess it's part dented ego, it's hard to think someone who had you as a major part of their life has replaced you. I guess it's part loneliness (I'm not seeing anyone at the moment), part envy (she's fantastically happy), but also I'm really happy for her, everything seems to be working out for her. I'm proud I guess, things weren't going great at the end of our relationship and now she's happy I guess she's more attractive. I know I don't want to get back with her as that would be a big mistake. It's just weird.

I broke up with her because she was moving away and I wasn't that committed to the relationship to do the long distance thing. Now I miss the intimacy, all I've got is my work and I put all my energy into that. I don't want a stupid casual relationship, I don't have the time to do the ol' courtship routine, but to say I want true love or nothing seems a really dumb comment. I don't know what I want. But Becky's moved on and it's got me thinking I really need to sort my life out.

I'll talk to you later guys, I've got some serious thinking to do.

T