thedorkiest

sitting here..
drinking a zima
smoking a bowl..

Thinking, wanting to work on my novel but cannot disconnect from my back to concentrate on the novel. And sonuvabitch, I am only $) pages away from getting all of it in the computer. Almost done...

Pain is funny. I've lived with severe back pain for six years now. It's familiar to me now. I can't imagine my life without my back feeling as if it's being ripped apart.
My Father, back in my senior year when my back was getting worse and I was getting depressed, told me I just need to get over it, that the pain is all in my head, etc etc etc...

Well he had a semi minor surgery yesterday, and is in a lot of pain. He tried "shaking it off" etc, and by his stubborness and moving around, he's made his pain worse. He doesn't understand that you have to take it easy..it takes time to heal..
But, I think he sees me in a better light now that he has a taste of the pain I feel everyday. I hope this makes him see me better..

One of the saddest moments in my life was when I realized my Dad thought I was just letting my life waste away to this back pain.

But I'm doing kick ass ..I'm slowly recovering. And within a year I will be on the way to achieving all my dreams. I'm going to be a known author, a stand up comedian, and I plan on traveling and speaking to sick/sad kids/adults and help them out.

I've kept the same dreams since I was a litte kid, growing up in hospitals. I knew one day I would beat all of this..and I would become everything I am meant to be.

And that will happen. I refuse to give up.

Take Care Everyone
-Michael