hey there... mini rant:
im really sad for my current relationship, i have a guy living with me, but he's not my b/f nor is he willing to put that lable on it, but he sleeps in my bed and all that kind of stuff, even met each others families.... its so weird and scary for me, i love him... he's in a much better spot than i am right now mentally, for the first time since i met him he's been going out again, hanging out with some other chick who is also named lauren, for some reason it really bothers me that she has the same name as me.... im just scared because he doesnt need me any more, and if he doesnt need me, than maybe he wont want to be how we have been for so long... i have a hard time trusting him, not because i think he'll fuck me over, but because without the actual comitment, he could easily fool around and consider it not wrong... im only making things worse because i start a fight every time he goes out with her now, i dont mean to, but i get so angry and sad and just weird.... he needs friends and a life and space, but i just really dont want to lose him, but with how im acting im afraid i will lose him....
i hope this makes sense, im a smidge not sober right now....
if anyone wants to come to a sex toy party im hosting this saturday, let me know....
im really sad for my current relationship, i have a guy living with me, but he's not my b/f nor is he willing to put that lable on it, but he sleeps in my bed and all that kind of stuff, even met each others families.... its so weird and scary for me, i love him... he's in a much better spot than i am right now mentally, for the first time since i met him he's been going out again, hanging out with some other chick who is also named lauren, for some reason it really bothers me that she has the same name as me.... im just scared because he doesnt need me any more, and if he doesnt need me, than maybe he wont want to be how we have been for so long... i have a hard time trusting him, not because i think he'll fuck me over, but because without the actual comitment, he could easily fool around and consider it not wrong... im only making things worse because i start a fight every time he goes out with her now, i dont mean to, but i get so angry and sad and just weird.... he needs friends and a life and space, but i just really dont want to lose him, but with how im acting im afraid i will lose him....
i hope this makes sense, im a smidge not sober right now....
if anyone wants to come to a sex toy party im hosting this saturday, let me know....
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Just out of curiosity, why are you almost never in 105 anymore?