thedarkharlequin

Something I started writing a while back and just now finished, or at least it's finished for now. Probably not grand to dredge up old crap, but I felt that it was good writing, even if it is old pain and new regret.

It began through a friend
but love was in the wind
or maybe just a breeze
that left me on my knees

As soon as I saw her
could never have forgot her
I drew her down on paper
so that I could lover her later

Fast forward to war memorials
first dates with grave less burials
History in the making
amongst historical recreating

Still to shy to admit it
but could not truly remit it
Bar room lust was what we found
but love was there when we came down

What should have been a summer fling
we tried to make a lasting thing
but did not stand the test of time
and faked our acts in pantomime

Till I was left in desperation
fear of final separation
You thought it better to ignore
rather than to close the door

And when we severed all our ties
admission came of all your lies
And with a lack of explanation
my answers found inebriation

I never found myself again
so someone else moved right on in
to dig away from this old hole
and find a home for this new soul

But every time I fill your spot
it strikes me that it's you they're not
and I hate to make them suffer so
for my failure in letting go

So you keep on going back to school
to prove to someone you're not a fool
It's those you hate you will become
because you won't become your own someone

So here I am a lonely fool
I try to care but find it cruel
Who I love I do not want
and those I want I do not love


as well as an excelent song to re-emphasize the feeling


and sadly enough this song is really fitting as well....


and yes, I am a meatloaf fan.