thecowboy

..i was walking today in the warm spring air..through the park, down the long sidewalks, up the hills, along the streams..there was sunshine, there were birds chirping, there were my hands on the blooming trees and flowers as i walked on by..and it was all under the big white of the mountains all around me..everything was good..but when i looked upon the lovers holding hands, i was a little mad..ill admit some resentment..ive always been solo..well, for the most part of course..i felt little jealousy, but mostly a hot anger..burning like a glowing iron driving into my heart..i felt like telling those two to fuck off for ruining my walk..then i thought, damn, im becoming a bitter old man well before my time..i thought hey, im no cover boy, but im not that ugly either..and ive always felt this doom of a destiny to be so lonely..love is for the pretty people..and i have come to hate them for it..im just trying to come clean with myself..this obviously cant be how i live the rest of my life, and i have to get over all of it..for sanitys sake, for my sake..i dunno..it was a tough day..