theconservative

so we had the talk. the good thing is that it came from me. i just said that it wasn't working and we would need to separate. i told her that trying to force things wouldn't work and we needed to be apart to have any chance of getting back together. i have no expectations. we'll live in the same house for awhile (we have four bedrooms, i'll just take over one of those) so we can both be with the baby. it'll kind of be like roommates. the funny thing is we already talk much better. it's like a wall has been removed. i'm not looking forward to getting back into the dating scene again though. i don't know if it's a lack of self esteem or what, but i'm kind of nervous. but i guess i'll manage, hell, i've always been the biggest guy around (i'm 6'5" and about 350) i've found plenty of girls who like big guys, so i guess i'll be ok.

i had to get a tooth pulled yesterday. i'm not going to be able to bet an implant for a couple of months, so i'll be snaggle toothed (it's a back lower molar) it fucking hurts like a mofo. i've been popping lorcet for the last day and a half and i hope i can go to work tomorrow. the dentist just yanked it out and found a big ass abcess on it, so i went in just in time.