Everyone says "dream big," they also say "don't let your eyes be bigger than your stomach." Both of which I am notoriously good at. I am the type of person who shoots for the moon so I still end up among the stars and then I get upset when I can't have my cake and eat it too. (Are you loving the cliches yet?) Suffice to say, I took on too much at once and fell short on some things.
My dreams are big, and I have this untamable desire to do everything all at once and put 100% into all the things. And expect them to all work out the way I have decided that I want them to. Which, doesn't work so well. Because I wind up feeling stretched too thin and let things fall apart. I try and do too much at once and wind up feeling overwhelmed to the point where I freeze and instead do nothing.
Case in point - Suicide Girls. More than anything I want to become pink. This has been a dream of mine for 2 years. But not becoming pink after putting in the effort I have has left me defeated and discouraged. I don't feel like I have the time to focus on the SG community (especially when they still don't have an app...) in order for them to notice me and turn me pink.
And now with the global situation, it's not like I am going to have a bunch of sets to upload. So I feel as though, for the time being, the best thing for me to do is to step back and focus on my other dreams. I am still a hopeful, and I still desire to be part of this community. And if you want to see more of me you can here. For now, I need to take a step back from SG and refocus.
I'll be back.
