I introduced myself a while ago and then went kinda MIA... Vacations were partially to blame, but a bigger part of it is that I am spiteful and salty towards social media right now. As a body positive & rave wear model, a mental health advocate and someone who tries very hard to play by the outlandish rules that Instagram has set out, I felt personally attacked when three weeks ago my Instagram account was disabled.
To start off with, I had 2000 followers, that's not a number big enough to be a threat to anyone. Secondly, my photos were artistically nude. When there was a nipple I was painting over it, because heaven forbid someone get offended by my body. 🙄 Very rarely did I post fully nude photos, and after being shadow banned two weeks prior to my disabling, I was starting to put more clothes on to prevent Instagram from doing exactly what they bloody well did.
As superficial as it is, I almost cried. I have spent a lot of time building that following, there are people I was talking to who looked to me for inspiration. And it isn't just the fact that my account was disabled and I may loose all my memories, it's the fact that I now feel shamed again for being sexual.
I was finally starting to shake the voices that had been telling me for the last seven years that being sexual made me a whore no one would want, I was finally starting to own my sexuality and found a strength in me that I hadn't before. And then, like a kick to the stomach, I am made to feel like sexual deviants are not accepted in society.
And so I hid, angry and upset. I reverted away from all platforms, being salty AF and refusing to continue on. I still refuse to create a new Instagram, I'm still fighting with them to get theconfessionn back and I will continue for another while. Maybe eventually I will try and rebuild, but right now I am too salty to give them the satisfaction of starting over (plus I would have to make a whole new e-mail JUST for one instagram account...)
For now though I have decided it's time to stop being spiteful and get back to being a sexual deviant, which means more blog posts for you to read, more engagement from me, and of course, more photos. 😏
Oh, did I mention you can also find me on Twitter and OnlyFans being my naked and funny self. 😘
