theburningred

i'm bein a goober lately

i've been hiding out and staying up late nights. New York is happening in 2 weeks and i'm not as excited as was a month ago. Nonetheless i need a vacation bad! I feel like i'm just not ready for this trip. I need a little pep in my life, it's few and far between lately..

i'm just feeling bored bored bored. I only really get excited when one person calls me; and i know i can't be like that- i feel like it's asking for trouble. It's always amazing how long it really takes to get over a heart break. I'm not talking over the person because I'm definite that I'm way past that- it's the part where you have to let your guard down and and trust the next guy and lose fear of the thought that they will hurt you like other people once had.

Sometimes it just seems easier to be alone because then you don't have to go out of your way to make someone feel special, especially when you aren't feeling too special yourself... am i making sense? It's just this apprehension I'm carrying around.

i just cut that back a bit- because it's a little much for even me to read...

i'll soon see where it all goes..

Not much else going on...can't wait to hit up NC to chill with southernbelle, steveneurotic & uncaringmachine HOORAY! SG peep party!