theburningred

good morning... well it must be,...DANIELLE has a new set up!

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last night was rough. thank god for family when you need it. My brother came and visited me just when i needed it. I never see him anymore and i was missing him lots and lots

My mother sent him when she saw how upset i had gotten myself over something that i can't help... it's more than the weather. I can't immediately recall of a point in my life where i've gotten myself so worked up to the point where i tears were flowing and so was everything i ate earlier throughout the day, nonstop till the acid burned my throat. after it was over i just cried more and more. today i am looking better but the eyes are still puffed.

I guess it turns out that i am not well, and as much as i'd like to be...i'm just not. just exhausted I just wish sometimes for a break in time. I'd go back in time. I'd change things, i'd stop things from happening, i wouldn't have these insane dreams, i wouldn't lock up the emotions and pretend like i am ok. I'm not ok, but soon i hope i will be.
anyway i'll quit my sadness and look up to the day ahead....and if i make it past today then i can look forward to the other great things i was planning for the weeks to come.

tonight i got my Bikram yoga class,...christ i need it.