theburningred

this weather is bumming me out.

i woke at 5 this morning to the power going out. Not sure what about that would wake me up but i couldn't go back to sleep. So in the dark i stared off into space, it kinda was nice. I watched the lightning flashing; eerie yet peaceful. For a couple moments it felt relaxing, until the thunder roared in. As it got louder and louder it started to freak me out. So here i am 25 and still spooked of thunder. i hid under the covers. Scared (of what, i'm not sure) maybe the pure darkness. I dunno maybe i just wished someone was in bed with me keeping me warm and holding me tight so i wasn't so shaky...i felt soo little. like a kid, i just wanted my mommy or even my daddy...all i had was my gloworm Chloe to light the darkness (yes i still have a gloworm thank you very much!)...such a sad, sad, morning.

Something is amiss, i'm not my cheery usual.

and today is the first day of hurricane season...

bring on the insanity!