theburningred

I'm a whirlwind of emotions today.

Big day today, recommittment D-day. Well it's actually tuesday the 15th, but today I have to call my team coordinator. Recommittment is the day i recommit for my triathlon in April. At this point i should have 1300.00 raised; and by 4/9 I'd have to commit to have the additional 1300.00 raised. I came up short- and right now i have to decide if i want 800 charged to my credit card to cover me.

There's really no way I can do this. It sucks, i'm very very down about it. I really wanted to compete. And now i won't. I just don't have the cash, otherwise I totally would. So i cried last night, and a little this morning, but I guess i have to see the silver lining:

I helped raised almost 500 for Leukemia research
I met and made friends with some cool positive people
I became a better swimmer
I became a better runner
I can ride 20 miles on a bike at 7am Sunday morning!
I lost weight
I made a difference!

and of course every "single" person's favorite holiday is around the corner. Vday. who's idea was this anyway? *heart sinks*

question: best change you've made this year?
i stopped smoking (yes i know an oxymoron because i was training to help Leukemia- don't remind me!!!) when i drink- i've been smoke free for almost 1 month. (drinking i'll never give up!!!)