hey it's an update, and no i'm not drunk!
i'll admit i was a little silly last night- had fun though. Today by contrast was much more low key. Worked a bit- but just wasn't feeling the work vibe. Luckily i was able to leave a little early to lay down.
Had sushi with my homeboy tonight; it was cool much better than him and i drinking at allstars. I'm really proud of him- i think he can beat down the shit that distracts him from what he needs to do to get his life right. I just need to find him a nice girl so he can just sit still for a little bit.
i had some thinking time tonight- so i've come to the conclusion that in the next relationship i have- i will spend more time at home. My ex and i lived prolly like 1/2 hour from each other and i was always staying there. I barely ever slept here, and NEVER checked the mail. As a result the mail has piled up (about 3 months worth) but i kept ignoring it (hoping it would go away?) i don't blame the relationship for my disorganization- but i think i prolly should have spent more time home to declutter.
if i didn't manage my shit online i'm sure i'd be fuct. I dunno this disorganization is really getting to me. This year I've made more money than i ever have in my life and i can't seem to figure out where my cash goes- i mean i want what everyone else wants- i want to buy my own place (quit renting already) and settle down. I just don't want to settle here in FLA. So bored with it. I came to the conclusion that i want to be a snow bird. live here during this time of year and then the summer and spring elsewhere. Weather wise right now FLA is the place to be- i mean shit i'm at the beach every weekend, or by the pool! - but Summer is SOOO fucking hot i can't stand it.
Good news on my job hunt in GA is i have a guaranteed bartending j-o-b but i don't want to wrap myself in that lifestyle again- the working late nights and weekends- especially because i love having weekends off.
oh well oh well. I'm going through crazy emotions these days- still feel a bit sad- and i hope it fades soon cuz i hate this shit.
happy thoughts, happy thoughts, happy thoughts
i'll admit i was a little silly last night- had fun though. Today by contrast was much more low key. Worked a bit- but just wasn't feeling the work vibe. Luckily i was able to leave a little early to lay down.
Had sushi with my homeboy tonight; it was cool much better than him and i drinking at allstars. I'm really proud of him- i think he can beat down the shit that distracts him from what he needs to do to get his life right. I just need to find him a nice girl so he can just sit still for a little bit.
i had some thinking time tonight- so i've come to the conclusion that in the next relationship i have- i will spend more time at home. My ex and i lived prolly like 1/2 hour from each other and i was always staying there. I barely ever slept here, and NEVER checked the mail. As a result the mail has piled up (about 3 months worth) but i kept ignoring it (hoping it would go away?) i don't blame the relationship for my disorganization- but i think i prolly should have spent more time home to declutter.
if i didn't manage my shit online i'm sure i'd be fuct. I dunno this disorganization is really getting to me. This year I've made more money than i ever have in my life and i can't seem to figure out where my cash goes- i mean i want what everyone else wants- i want to buy my own place (quit renting already) and settle down. I just don't want to settle here in FLA. So bored with it. I came to the conclusion that i want to be a snow bird. live here during this time of year and then the summer and spring elsewhere. Weather wise right now FLA is the place to be- i mean shit i'm at the beach every weekend, or by the pool! - but Summer is SOOO fucking hot i can't stand it.
Good news on my job hunt in GA is i have a guaranteed bartending j-o-b but i don't want to wrap myself in that lifestyle again- the working late nights and weekends- especially because i love having weekends off.
oh well oh well. I'm going through crazy emotions these days- still feel a bit sad- and i hope it fades soon cuz i hate this shit.
happy thoughts, happy thoughts, happy thoughts
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I know things get a bit confusing, and for me, when my house isn't organized, my brain feels all cluttered....take a day, clean it up, and I'm sure you'll feel at least a little better!!!
*hugs*
Nighty nite