As for the fear I described heavily in my last entry. It was full in manefestation most of the morning while at work.
Yet this afternoon I felt free from it for the most part. Perhaps I need Zoloft or something.
I have kept far away from pills like that ever since ritilin ate away my brain throughout my adolesence. But perhaps Zoloft would be different.
I've always felt as though this is the real me, moodswings, paranoia, and all. But maybe I'd still be me, just better. If anyone of the maybe two people who read my journals have an opinion on this matter. Please express it, help is always appreciated.
But..in real news:
My production company (consisting of me and my friend, Shane
) have teamed up with four other guys in a Film Project Incubator. What this is is a bunch of teams submit a film no longer than 5min to a small festival. There are judges who rate your film. The best team gets $20,000 and the use of Universal's Backlots to shoot another flick.
It is not all smooth sailing, there are a few kinks in the plan. Two of the other guys do not like my script. They think it is too depressing and will not grab anyone's attention.
If they read deeper they would see how it is actually very uplifting. Like the song 'Everybody Hurts'. If you don't listen/watch all the way through sure you will be depressed. But the meaningful end is what lifts you up where you belong. hehe
la la la...
N-E ways. Can you tell I am happier than I was at this time yesterday?
Soo. we finally convinced them since mine was the only idea that was actually most of the way through pre-production and the two guys who didn't like it were not at the first 3 meetings when the REAL brainstorming and decision-making was being done.
I would not have minded keeping this idea for Shane and I to do on our own, but it fits in the time limit and really has a great chance of getting us that funding. If they would have brought another idea that everyone could agree on there would have been no problem. They were only bringing negativity to the table.
So, with the lighting schemes and the direction we have planned I think that we can take this contest hands down.
There are also going to be reps from Miramax and a few other biggie companies there to watch. So winning isn't everything.
*yawn
Well goodnight all, especially FLUX, since I know she reads these.
Peace.
Yet this afternoon I felt free from it for the most part. Perhaps I need Zoloft or something.
I have kept far away from pills like that ever since ritilin ate away my brain throughout my adolesence. But perhaps Zoloft would be different.
I've always felt as though this is the real me, moodswings, paranoia, and all. But maybe I'd still be me, just better. If anyone of the maybe two people who read my journals have an opinion on this matter. Please express it, help is always appreciated.
But..in real news:
My production company (consisting of me and my friend, Shane
) have teamed up with four other guys in a Film Project Incubator. What this is is a bunch of teams submit a film no longer than 5min to a small festival. There are judges who rate your film. The best team gets $20,000 and the use of Universal's Backlots to shoot another flick.
It is not all smooth sailing, there are a few kinks in the plan. Two of the other guys do not like my script. They think it is too depressing and will not grab anyone's attention.
If they read deeper they would see how it is actually very uplifting. Like the song 'Everybody Hurts'. If you don't listen/watch all the way through sure you will be depressed. But the meaningful end is what lifts you up where you belong. hehe
la la la...
N-E ways. Can you tell I am happier than I was at this time yesterday?
Soo. we finally convinced them since mine was the only idea that was actually most of the way through pre-production and the two guys who didn't like it were not at the first 3 meetings when the REAL brainstorming and decision-making was being done.
I would not have minded keeping this idea for Shane and I to do on our own, but it fits in the time limit and really has a great chance of getting us that funding. If they would have brought another idea that everyone could agree on there would have been no problem. They were only bringing negativity to the table.
So, with the lighting schemes and the direction we have planned I think that we can take this contest hands down.
There are also going to be reps from Miramax and a few other biggie companies there to watch. So winning isn't everything.
*yawn
Well goodnight all, especially FLUX, since I know she reads these.
Peace.
shewulf:
I like the story.....I really hope you guys win.....I to must go to bed....just wanted to say Hello and see what you had to say.... G' Night
G' Night