thebigjankowski

And with that... I think this relationship has run its course. Just is not working. While we haven't broken up, it's staring us right in the face. She's way into the relationship, I, for whatever reason, just cannot rekindle that flame I had for her last year (when she dumped me).

Maybe I just never got over it. Maybe my heart is a one and done in my case. Maybe I needed to date someone else before jumping back in with her a few months later. I don't know. I don't have an answer, I wish I did.

I really tried. This girl has been through so much and I was the first guy to really treat her like a girl deserves. I'm not saying this to toot my own horn or anything, I really was. She's 29 and I was the first guy to send her flowers on Valentine's Day. We went out all the time and did little things and had a blast, like getting ice cream.

I said that I want to keep trying. I didn't want to say "break up". She asked, "What does keep trying even mean?"

So with that, I feel like the writing is on the wall. I feel terrible, sick to my stomach. She really is a great girl and deserves an equally great guy. Unfortunately, I just don't think that guy is me. I can't give her the constant attention that she wants (texting all day, etc). We'll see. Good night, SG.