thebigjankowski

Well... I had my hand forced tonight. I had to cut a girl loose tonight. We had dated twice in the past and she wanted a third chance, even after dumping me twice previously. We went out a couple times a few months ago, but I told her that I wasn't feeling it anymore, yet, she still hung around. Messages daily. It really got to the point that when I'd see a message pop up, I would just If I didn't respond right away, it was I'm ignoring or my silence speaks volumes. It really, really got to be too much.

So the other day, she asked me to at least consider giving her a third chance. I said I would consider it. I actually considered taking her out next week, just to see if things clicked one last time. I know, I shouldn't, but I considered it. She really is a good person and we had fun when we hung out.

Like I said, my hand was forced. I had to put an end to it. For me, the constant messages, the begging, the pleading, it was too much. I couldn't do it. And even though I wasn't intentionally leading her on, it felt like I was and that's not fair to her. I had to put an end to things.

It wasn't a good feeling, I took no pleasure from it. It sucks. A lot. Hurting a person you do care about, but it was a necessary evil.

I hope everyone has a good and safe Thanksgiving. I'm going to close out this post with one of my new favorite songs. I'm really going to have to see this Rat Pack movie.