thebigdirty

SMPTE conference coming up! One of the biggest weeks of my life as far as fun and importance to my career after Uni!! Also coming up, one of the most amazing 3 week trips of my life, spending it with family and something that my Dad has planned for ages and is so badly looking forward to me being a part of!

How good is this right?...

WRONG!.....As these things are both happening right at the same time!

So here I am, faced with one of the most important career experiences of my life, or the biggest most important family trip of my life and I am forced to pick one! What the fuck!!!? How can the occurence of these two amazing events, be the source the source of so much prospective pain and anguish! Do I utterly disappoint my Dad and family? Or do I throw away what could make or break my career?

What kind of fucked up thing to do to someone is that??

Normally I am a pretty positive person, but ultimately this decision has no real win in my books, so my pessimism has crept in and is taking over. And the worst thing is, I am leaning towards the conference due to its importance. So now I sit here just absolutely wallowing in guilt as I wait for Monday to come, where I will be talking to my parents & most likely will be forced to let them down.

Do I make a decision that will make me hate myself, or one that will make them hate me....?
Either way I have to decide!