Sometimes I like to sit and stare at this.
and this.
(I made them dark on purpose so shut up)
Thats the view from my balcony today at around 5pm or so. I was thinking about religion at the time. I somtimes try to view an ideal about something from what i belive and from what someone else might believe. Today I thought about god
Now I'll let you know that i do not belive. I'm more of an agnostic then a full blown athiest. I think and more then likly some devine being that oversees everything does not exist. But i also know that it would be imposable to find out ether way while I am still alive. Hense the agnostic part. My mind keeps asking the before question. God is suposed to be eternal right? Well I want to know what made god. There is always a before. The only way to ensure there is not a before is to look at the our lives and everything around us, space included, like the inside of a balloon or maybe a mobius curve. Lets say our entire existance and our perception of time is like the inside of a balloon. You keep walking forward and you never really reach the end. Time just keeps going. You may take a different path around that balloon but you can walk for ever. Eventually you might come upon a part of the balloon that you have seen before. Hense the reason why we study history. Time repeats itself right? With that in mind, in my mind. God does not work. Sure he could exist in it but there is still this hypocrisy I would create between a belief in a religon that says god is eternal and my wander-lust for the before. With that a side, which i could speak on for hours probably, I also do not belive because of what we as humans do to each other. Say he does exist. That means he is sitting back on his throne and watching us rape,murder, and destroy each other. Yet when we are ready to come to heaven he is going to judge our lives. Yet he just sits back and watches the world turn. What an asshole. I could belive in anyone who would do such a thing. Or maybe he can only create stuff?
Okay i am rambling and i have no idea what I meant to say with all of this. I do know that i could explain the reason I think the way I do all night long. There are quite a lot of open ends I need to address int eh above paragraph alone. I will not continue on however. I doubt anyone will read all that. It did come from my head and is confusing even me.
-roguemind
and this.
(I made them dark on purpose so shut up)
Thats the view from my balcony today at around 5pm or so. I was thinking about religion at the time. I somtimes try to view an ideal about something from what i belive and from what someone else might believe. Today I thought about god
Now I'll let you know that i do not belive. I'm more of an agnostic then a full blown athiest. I think and more then likly some devine being that oversees everything does not exist. But i also know that it would be imposable to find out ether way while I am still alive. Hense the agnostic part. My mind keeps asking the before question. God is suposed to be eternal right? Well I want to know what made god. There is always a before. The only way to ensure there is not a before is to look at the our lives and everything around us, space included, like the inside of a balloon or maybe a mobius curve. Lets say our entire existance and our perception of time is like the inside of a balloon. You keep walking forward and you never really reach the end. Time just keeps going. You may take a different path around that balloon but you can walk for ever. Eventually you might come upon a part of the balloon that you have seen before. Hense the reason why we study history. Time repeats itself right? With that in mind, in my mind. God does not work. Sure he could exist in it but there is still this hypocrisy I would create between a belief in a religon that says god is eternal and my wander-lust for the before. With that a side, which i could speak on for hours probably, I also do not belive because of what we as humans do to each other. Say he does exist. That means he is sitting back on his throne and watching us rape,murder, and destroy each other. Yet when we are ready to come to heaven he is going to judge our lives. Yet he just sits back and watches the world turn. What an asshole. I could belive in anyone who would do such a thing. Or maybe he can only create stuff?
Okay i am rambling and i have no idea what I meant to say with all of this. I do know that i could explain the reason I think the way I do all night long. There are quite a lot of open ends I need to address int eh above paragraph alone. I will not continue on however. I doubt anyone will read all that. It did come from my head and is confusing even me.
-roguemind
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I would have to be more along the lines of a zen buhhdist. the idea of a all knowing all powerful god in the christian sence is criminal to me. if this god has the power to intervene when bad shit happens and doesn't, then that god is as guilty as the rapist, the murderer, etc. the whole idea of a "test" just pisses me off too. and the ultimate damning "evidence" is the design of living organisms, the whole eating and shitting thing. that's the best design "god" could come up with?
the picture of the bridge I included because I liked the picture, not because is had anything to do with liquid. I went ahead and entered one of the pictures in the contest even thougth there is a month before the deadline. I don't think I'll get much better than that without being terribly unoriginal