I wake to sleep and take my waking slow" -Theodore Roethke-
I think I have used that quote before. I would not doubt it. It is one of my favorites right along with "through hardship to the stars" which I think was birthed in trekie culture. But the first one is on my mind tonight. I cannot be sure exactly what Roethke meant by it as I have not studied him much. But I do know what it means to me. And that is really all that matters when reading any syphany of words. I have lived my life in a closet. A shadow of who I really am. Afraid of anything new to me, but yearning to do something with my life that would allow me to die with a smile on my face. Parts of me think there is a little bit of talent floating around inside me somewhere. Sometimes I think it is in my photography and sometimes its in my writing. I have taken thousands of pictures and have spilled words into many forms. But I have yet to create something that I could stand next to in front of the entire world and proclaim proudly, "this is mine." My magnum opus if you will has eluded me thus far. Many friends have told me my photgraphy is great or my words sting deep. But none of my creative outburst have quenched the thirst of what ever it is inside me. Normally I would say that is wonderful. It means I still have more to give. But not this time. Out of everything I have done, nothing has really said anything at all. It has all been missing somthing. Some meaning I meant to infer or some message. Something. That is now my quest. Everyone is searching for something and mabye now it just my time to start figuring out what exactly it is that I am searching for in my life. There is a book in the works just so you know. And my photography will be making a comeback.
-roguemind
Ohh and i realize it is more then just my friends who read this. If you want to respond to me about this. Make sure it is a mature response. If you come to me acting like a child dont bother even speaking. I probably already know you are ignorent and I do not need any more clarrification.
I think I have used that quote before. I would not doubt it. It is one of my favorites right along with "through hardship to the stars" which I think was birthed in trekie culture. But the first one is on my mind tonight. I cannot be sure exactly what Roethke meant by it as I have not studied him much. But I do know what it means to me. And that is really all that matters when reading any syphany of words. I have lived my life in a closet. A shadow of who I really am. Afraid of anything new to me, but yearning to do something with my life that would allow me to die with a smile on my face. Parts of me think there is a little bit of talent floating around inside me somewhere. Sometimes I think it is in my photography and sometimes its in my writing. I have taken thousands of pictures and have spilled words into many forms. But I have yet to create something that I could stand next to in front of the entire world and proclaim proudly, "this is mine." My magnum opus if you will has eluded me thus far. Many friends have told me my photgraphy is great or my words sting deep. But none of my creative outburst have quenched the thirst of what ever it is inside me. Normally I would say that is wonderful. It means I still have more to give. But not this time. Out of everything I have done, nothing has really said anything at all. It has all been missing somthing. Some meaning I meant to infer or some message. Something. That is now my quest. Everyone is searching for something and mabye now it just my time to start figuring out what exactly it is that I am searching for in my life. There is a book in the works just so you know. And my photography will be making a comeback.
-roguemind
Ohh and i realize it is more then just my friends who read this. If you want to respond to me about this. Make sure it is a mature response. If you come to me acting like a child dont bother even speaking. I probably already know you are ignorent and I do not need any more clarrification.
http://www.myspace.com/roguemuse - My Myspace.
http://arcanecircle.blogspot.com - My BlogSpot
http://www.roguemind.org My website is updated quite less than infrequent.
Yahoo - roguemind1
MSNmssgr uses an email and i have used this one since jr high: anarchy_man1@hotmail.com
good luck to you, I am sure I will run into you on Myspace, although I have to warn you, I check that account maybe once every 3 months. I am not a fan of the Myspace thing.....