How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
-'tears and rain' james blunt
That is a damm good song. Well it is for me at least. It seems to hit home a bit. If you have not heard his song 'you're beautiful' i suggest you go download it or buy his cd as i did. Dont worry about what type of music it is. Just go listen and feel it. I love me some rock and yet this guy is growing on me.
I never did try the fake macro thing with my camera, although i still might. I am going to try to take some more picture though. I really need to. It just my mind is so clouded these days its hard to do anything with any effectiveness.
My fish is doing good. I think i might need to change the water more often. The advice i was given said to do it weekly but the water is getting kind of cloudly.
The girly type left today for a few weeks. Things are going great between us and I am falling in love with her daughter. She might follow someday but i'm not there yet with her. I'm not even sure if i can fall in love with a girl anymore. Anyways. I am getting over my feeling that she doesnt challenge my mind enough. I realized she is open to learning new things and then talking about them.
I guess thats it. Nothing new really. More a collection of thoughts.
-roguemind
