time flys when your having fun...guess that explains why it taking so long for me to give it up...anyways, started my fiber optics installer class today..yummy...i'l be certified w/in the month depepending on how long it takes for them to grade my test(which i take on fri, yeah its a week long course)...then i can make more money...yay more money...boo being sad and pathetic though..anyways...
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Happy Happy
Joy Joy.
Facade.
A paranoid mind struggles to overcome.
It falters and sanity fades away.
The blanket crumbles, and reality shows its face.
The mind searches for purpose and passion in a bleak existence.
Stimulants fall short of mending his front.
He walks apart from the world broken and used.
At home he hides in a safe cocoon.
But paranoia, his stalker, follows...
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Joy Joy.
Facade.
A paranoid mind struggles to overcome.
It falters and sanity fades away.
The blanket crumbles, and reality shows its face.
The mind searches for purpose and passion in a bleak existence.
Stimulants fall short of mending his front.
He walks apart from the world broken and used.
At home he hides in a safe cocoon.
But paranoia, his stalker, follows...
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Well i had my board. I did alot better then i thought i was going to do. It was not at all worth the stress I gave it. Anyways..Tomarrow is halo's eve...anything going on in the sg world?
thearcanecircle:
Happy Happy
Joy Joy.
Facade.
A paranoid mind struggles to overcome.
It falters and sanity fades away.
The blanket crumbles, and reality shows its face.
The mind searches for purpose and passion in a bleak existence.
Stimulants fall short of mending his front.
He walks apart from the world broken and used.
At home he hides in a safe cocoon.
But paranoia, his stalker, follows suit.
Thoughts of failure haunt him.
His confidence smolders behind him,
And her crimson words swirl inside his head.
She is gone now,
Off on fact finding journey to find herself.
The value of commitment in her eyes was shown to him.
Nothing.
Not a care for cause and effect.
A selfish truth laced in venom.
Its burns to his very soul.
It was only a single indiscretion.
He cant let go.
Pathetic.
The love inside is welded to each cell of his body.
So he waits in torment.
A self-inflicted purgatory.
While she explores the joys of separation from legal obligation.
Her doubts of marriage remain in the spotlight.
Yet through some evil twist of fate she still feels hope.
This fuels the hell her partner in pain allows himself to endure.
Hope.
Such a simple word and yet it stings the very soul of man.
It might work out.
Things could get better right?
But they wont.
Inside he knows reality.
Denial is such a deadly emotion.
It forces people to cling onto a lost cause despite their better judgment.
I will just wait a month or two to see what happens.
And the pain runs thick.
He is fading slowly into some denial-induced world of fantasy and hope.
Inside his body is blackened by the truth.
Ignorance was bliss I suppose.
Look at me smile.
Im happy.
By Chris Mccready 2003
Joy Joy.
Facade.
A paranoid mind struggles to overcome.
It falters and sanity fades away.
The blanket crumbles, and reality shows its face.
The mind searches for purpose and passion in a bleak existence.
Stimulants fall short of mending his front.
He walks apart from the world broken and used.
At home he hides in a safe cocoon.
But paranoia, his stalker, follows suit.
Thoughts of failure haunt him.
His confidence smolders behind him,
And her crimson words swirl inside his head.
She is gone now,
Off on fact finding journey to find herself.
The value of commitment in her eyes was shown to him.
Nothing.
Not a care for cause and effect.
A selfish truth laced in venom.
Its burns to his very soul.
It was only a single indiscretion.
He cant let go.
Pathetic.
The love inside is welded to each cell of his body.
So he waits in torment.
A self-inflicted purgatory.
While she explores the joys of separation from legal obligation.
Her doubts of marriage remain in the spotlight.
Yet through some evil twist of fate she still feels hope.
This fuels the hell her partner in pain allows himself to endure.
Hope.
Such a simple word and yet it stings the very soul of man.
It might work out.
Things could get better right?
But they wont.
Inside he knows reality.
Denial is such a deadly emotion.
It forces people to cling onto a lost cause despite their better judgment.
I will just wait a month or two to see what happens.
And the pain runs thick.
He is fading slowly into some denial-induced world of fantasy and hope.
Inside his body is blackened by the truth.
Ignorance was bliss I suppose.
Look at me smile.
Im happy.
By Chris Mccready 2003
those are my eyes..there is more for me to write...but its not finished yet.. 
thearcanecircle:
Well tomarrow is a big day..its kind of like a big test. Tomarrow i sit in front of 3 people for about 3 hours so they can ask me questions about everything on a submarine. If i get enough right i get more chest candy for muh uniform and i get to atend some fancy ass boring ceremony in my honor so some other guys and take picutres of me and clap and pin the aforementioned chest candy on my uniform...yay...so wish me luck...or dont..either way i'm gonna get slaughtered...i'l let cha know...i say all this as if omeone cares...i'm so sad...goodnight...
The Fake Angel
Hair as black as night.
Eyes an emerald green.
Skin so soft and pale.
Beauty incarnate.
The angel took my hand,
And led me into love.
Months went by, her boredom grew,
This unknown to me.
Then one day she confessed to me,
Her boredom running through.
Damage done my heart in pieces,
Tears began to flow.
I gave this angel my...
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Hair as black as night.
Eyes an emerald green.
Skin so soft and pale.
Beauty incarnate.
The angel took my hand,
And led me into love.
Months went by, her boredom grew,
This unknown to me.
Then one day she confessed to me,
Her boredom running through.
Damage done my heart in pieces,
Tears began to flow.
I gave this angel my...
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i wonder why i get up sometimes...there really is no point..i'l just go back to bed at the end of the day..or maybe i just shouldnt sleep...hmm..here is a monkey looking thing for my thought.. goodnight again sgs
got married april 10th right? went to out to sea july 31st..my wife cheated on me during that time..flask fwd to now...i'm struggling with why i cant let go of her and why i still want her...hrm....there is more to my story i am just to lazy and pathetic right now to write it.. 
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thearcanecircle:
yeah thx...il make it...just i want to make it with her along my side...i almost wish i could give her up..it would be easier
mandymo:
Sucks when you break cd's...sucks when you get cheated on too...sucks much more than breaking cd's.
I know you've probably heard it before...but I think if people cheat once and get away with it...they'll keep doing it.
That's what I think.
Good-luck dude...things will work out even if it doesn't seem like it right now
I know you've probably heard it before...but I think if people cheat once and get away with it...they'll keep doing it.
That's what I think.
Good-luck dude...things will work out even if it doesn't seem like it right now
I'm finally leaving this base..go me...i get to go home for 23 days...what will i do there? i'm a loser...i think....the bad part is i have to check into another base in washington(bangor) on dec 2nd..then my profiel location thing will actully be true...prob gonna see my x-gf while i'm home..went went out for a long time..i was crazy about her..she cheated on me when...
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thearcanecircle:
i'm going to bed now..thanks for the comments..
Why do i go to concerts and mosh pits n such? Freedom really. Its one of the few places where i can go and act on what i feel completly...I get lost in the music and the people..And in the pit i sink into my own little world where my problems disapear..I just cloce my eye and move with the music and the flow of...
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I hide from the mirror.
It scares me.
What am I?
Nothing.
It scares me.
What am I?
Nothing.