hi..gott me a sweater coat type thing..its looks kinda preppy i spose, but i dont care. i like it and its comfortable...also added a crappy pic of my lamp heh..just look dammit..see you around.
i think i'm going to goodwill today..i always seem to want to go out when it rains..thats weird..also if anyone in my area (preferably female, but i soppose male will do as well) has a place i can do an outdoor suicide boy set let me know..i would love to do one outdoors someday..for now though indoors will have to do..i have a couple of...
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so tired...i need to go to bed..had about 3 hours in the past few days..yay...again i'm sorry about not getting a set up for you guys..dont worry, it will come..i just dont want to put anything less then my best effort up..i can do much better then the way the one i tried tonight looked...everyone wish cherri a safe trip...goodnight..
razzell:
I'm sure your pictures will be great 
. I do admire the fact that you want to do your best though. I can't wait ot see it!!
I know how it feels trying to function on very little sleep.So sleep tight handsome.
. I do admire the fact that you want to do your best though. I can't wait ot see it!!
I know how it feels trying to function on very little sleep.So sleep tight handsome.
howdy..just thought i'd let cha know i prob am doing the set today..i'm going to take a nap first..then i'l go work out and poot around town for a bit..but after that? i get neekkid for my friends 
so yay or neh to starting out in my uniform?
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madi:
Hey man where are your priorities? I'll have a few real pics of myself up soon. So you'll know what I really look like. I wonder what you think I look like??? Hmmmm... Well I'm off to the Sea-Tac airport in a few hours. Talk to you A.S.A.P.
thearcanecircle:
i just shot a uniform set..but its looks like crap..not sexy or artistic or nothing..just nekkid..i dont like it at all..i might post a few pics of it here..but not the entire set..unless i think of somthing better, maybe a better way to take my uniform off , by the time you leave you'll have to wait till i get back..jeeze these look like crap..grainy..bleh..sorry for not delivering when i said i would, but these are horrible..you should see em..well better yet you not...maybe i'l release a decent set when you return...
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Sunday i will do a new suicideboys set. I think..I also just added a new picture/poem..check it out here...its in my pictures section...enjoy..you guys rock..
Sunday. I will do my set sunday. Might post a poem later tonight though. First i'm going to take pictures by the lake channel thing here in silverdale..well in like 30 mins or so..
I did get your email ..i'l respond tomarrow sometime(also look in the entry before this one after the word note)..somehow the fw'ed you sent got deleted though, so you might want to resend that...I think tonight i'm going to read more of my book..the notebooks of da vinci..smart guy...Also if anyone is interested i'm prob going to the sg burleqsk thing in seattle on the...
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ouioui:
Oh my gawd my parents live there......
thearcanecircle:
umm cool heh? that mean your interested
Wow..after readding all the poems i missed in the poetry thread i really was meaning to write something..but this rum and butterscoth is startin to hi me more then i expected lol..i think i'm gonna lay down..maybe tomarrow..i at least made a couple notes..sounds good to me though and i dint think you were thinking that so no worries... 
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madi:
Hey, did you get my E-mail? I'm glad your motivated to write.
I'm motivated but I am blocked. Maybe cause I'm sick.
Well I'll keep an eye out for more of your poetry. Madi
I'm motivated but I am blocked. Maybe cause I'm sick.
Well I'll keep an eye out for more of your poetry. Madi
thearcanecircle:
i did get your email...look more clocely at this entry ..maybe after the word notes..heh..
..maybe after the word notes..heh.. I think everyone should join the poetry group and write..its so much fun and can be very theraputic..Anyways..I have lost somthing..Those who have followed my journal entries over the past month or so know what that is..It seems to come in waves now..Sometimes i'm great and sometimes i'm not..I think instead of hiding from it or ignoring it i will cherrish and think about it...
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razzell:
It's great to hear from you again!I was really getting worried about you.Don't do that again!
It's going to take some time to get her out of your head,and still there will be a part of you that will always love her.All you can do is keep living your life and wait for time to work it's magic.I think it's great that your keeping busy and at least making an effort to go out.
I can relate to what you said about trying to find yourself.Everytime I think I have the answer something happens to screw it all up again.I think all we can do is just try and love ourselves the way we are.
Take care of yourself sweetie,and keep your journal updated even if it's only to say hi.I worry ya know!
It's going to take some time to get her out of your head,and still there will be a part of you that will always love her.All you can do is keep living your life and wait for time to work it's magic.I think it's great that your keeping busy and at least making an effort to go out.
I can relate to what you said about trying to find yourself.Everytime I think I have the answer something happens to screw it all up again.I think all we can do is just try and love ourselves the way we are.
Take care of yourself sweetie,and keep your journal updated even if it's only to say hi.I worry ya know!
jenya:
hahahahah..........i think it IS a philly beefsteack cheese sandwhich in that pic.
it is actually off of the tour pics of one of my favorite bands....Kill Hannah....those nutty boys.
as for my meds........it may cause great anxiety to without them, that is not the kind of insane i can dig
it is actually off of the tour pics of one of my favorite bands....Kill Hannah....those nutty boys.
as for my meds........it may cause great anxiety to without them, that is not the kind of insane i can dig
Thanks guys..your thoughts mean a lot to me...I'v just been busy latly..trying to keep my mind of things for a bit i guess..i'l make a longer entry later...
Nothing.
I hide from the mirror.
It scares me.
What am I?
Nothing.
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i wrote this a while ago but it seems to fit again..enjoy..and if you cant tell, i'm not in to good of a mood right now..i spent the night driving home with tears in my eyes..which was hard to do, it was raining and foggy..anyways..i'l prob write more later..i need to...
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I hide from the mirror.
It scares me.
What am I?
Nothing.
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i wrote this a while ago but it seems to fit again..enjoy..and if you cant tell, i'm not in to good of a mood right now..i spent the night driving home with tears in my eyes..which was hard to do, it was raining and foggy..anyways..i'l prob write more later..i need to...
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razzell:
Hey Mister! You need to update your journal and let me now how your doing!
madi:
Just for shits and giggles I looked up your city on a map and your 45 minutes away from me. Thats kinda cool. Well my husband doesn't like me talking to you but I'm explaining to him that we are only friends. I guess he thinks I'm so awesome everyone wants me. 
Well I hope your feeling better.
Well I hope your feeling better. Greetings friends and fiends. i'm kind of worried i lost the ability to feel anything..latly i'v adopted a sort of "yeah ok i dont give a shit attitude" . i dont like it much, but its not like i'm trying to do this. i only seem to relize after the fact..and then i'm like "fuck it" already did it..heh..see the cycle? soppose its good that...
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razzell:
I agree with Jora.The not caring phase is just all part of the healing process.Your just in survival mode right now.It'll get better though.Time is a good medicine.
I think it's great that your not thinking about the ex all the time now.It just proves that your moving on with your life.You should be very proud of the progress you've made.I know i'm very proud for you.
I think it's great that your not thinking about the ex all the time now.It just proves that your moving on with your life.You should be very proud of the progress you've made.I know i'm very proud for you.
thearcanecircle:
thanks heh..i soppose this is normal....
thanks heh..i soppose this is normal....
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