Ok, so I guess I'll start out this journal entry answering Roby's question.

I have since cut off contact with the girl who I used to date. I know that most people would think that excommunication wouldn't be a good idea in this case since she just moved to Raleigh and doesn't really have anybody else to hang out with here, but she really deserves nothing but, that's how bad she was.

The final realization came a couple of weeks ago when I was at one of the concerts that I'd booked. All of my friends had canceled on me and I was sitting there hanging out with my friends in the bands, but still by myself in the sense of Raleigh friends. So it was really important that I got some people out, since everybody else had canceled on me (major bummer by the way).

So I call this girl up and ask her to come out and rock out, and she says no. I figure it's for a good reason, like she has something to do that day or whatever. Nope, she just "doesn't want to come" because she's tired. Now some of you might say I was irrational by becoming angry, but I wasn't because I gave her a couple of chances after that, such as one day asking her if she wanted to go out on a date, she calls saying she can't because she's depressed and she wants to stay in (she later that day told me she went to the mall to hang out with some guy).

From all of these little "experiences" I realized that she only cares about herself and what she wants to do, so I basically said "fuck the spoiled girl" and decided to excommunicate her. I have since been told that she's still in love with some guy that went into Iraq or something, just general craziness, so I know I made the right choice.

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But this really isn't that big of a deal to me, I mean I'm becoming much better about taking shit like this, since it happens all the time. These days have just been filled with psychotic stuff going on, with my music, my booking, and my women (or lack thereof), I don't know which side's up. But I know that I still love the YYY's new album after constantly listening to it since last summer.

I also had a semi-odd dream last night. There was a bunch of other shit that happened, but the odd part was when (I guess in the dream I woke up) I came up under these bedsheets and there was my best friend and a couple other people sitting around, and this girl I used to love was sitting on this sofa in a pose from one of Elara's sets (one of the boots sets). And she looked exactly like her, minus the hair color and face. I'm still not sure as to whether I should treat the dream as something weird or something awesome, haha.

I am all the day with my cock up looking at Katie and Elara's pics. hehe.

Happy belated birthday Maddy!!

And congrats to Stormy for finally making it onto the SG Burlesque!!! I hope that it can make it here this year especially now that Stormy's on the bill, but I'm real sad-like that Snow and Quinne aren't on anymore. I've wanted to meet Snow since I joined the website.

still dude...................Stormy