Interesting episode at work today.
I was in the kitchen, and all of a sudden, my mind just went totally blank. I was so overwhelmed by loneliness and futility, that all my thoughts and emotions just shut off. I felt dead and that everything was empty and meaningless. I found it hard to even continue working, except thankfully that I've been cooking in that kitchen so long, I can practically do the tasks as an automoton.
The state was odd and new to me, because in past it had always occurred after some significant negative event, and was usually accompanied by cutting. It's never happened out of the blue like this.
I was in the kitchen, and all of a sudden, my mind just went totally blank. I was so overwhelmed by loneliness and futility, that all my thoughts and emotions just shut off. I felt dead and that everything was empty and meaningless. I found it hard to even continue working, except thankfully that I've been cooking in that kitchen so long, I can practically do the tasks as an automoton.
The state was odd and new to me, because in past it had always occurred after some significant negative event, and was usually accompanied by cutting. It's never happened out of the blue like this.