i went and got tattooed on weds. just added some red into the wings of my chestpiece. that will probably be the last time that gary tattoos me. dude is moving to philly and getting an operation on his wrist. tattooing fucked him up. im sad. i just got a rack of monies with which to get tattooed. i found an alternative artist for my...
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No matter how much I say that I've learned life's lessons,
the only way to ever really know life's lessons
is when it smacks you right in the face
(i smacked life in the face)
Rubberband stretched to the limit,
but still I cannot help but pull it just a little bit more.
Once again my whole world crumbles, walls cave in, i fall backwards....
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the only way to ever really know life's lessons
is when it smacks you right in the face
(i smacked life in the face)
Rubberband stretched to the limit,
but still I cannot help but pull it just a little bit more.
Once again my whole world crumbles, walls cave in, i fall backwards....
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joshguy:
im being serious when i say i sat here for an hour staring at your journal thinking of something clever of up-lifting to say and i have absoultly nothing clever or up-lifting to say. ive lost all creativity. so without being clever or up-lifting, i hope everything works out with everything. 
chaoticdreamer4:
Boo angsty poetry. Okay, so maybe you fucked up somewhere along the line, but there's nothing you can do to change that now, and wallowing in self-belittlement isn't going to help anyone. Salvage what you can, learn from what happened and move on. Now, go do something fun and exciting to get yourself in better spirits... or at least do something constructive.
P.S. Don't blame me. You're the one who said to be brutally honest.
P.P.S. Nope, not on myspace.
P.S. Don't blame me. You're the one who said to be brutally honest.
P.P.S. Nope, not on myspace.
im going to put out something serious. i dont do it because i want pity, that im trying to be a martyr. but because it happened, and i need to get it out. i had it all. i had everything anyone could ever hope for. true love. the best people that could have ever come into my life, came almost together. i had to choose,...
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chaoticdreamer4:
I kinda think I know how you feel (not the exact same situation, but similar). I love my friends and would do anything, even give my life, for them, but I find ways to fuck up all the time and hurt them/let them down. Fortunately they haven't given up on me yet. Anyway, my words of wisdom are this: Life is one big learning process. Just take what lessons you can from this, do your best to set things right and don't get too down in the meantime.
rhp:
brutal honesty is most welcome
amen. i dont know you - you live in my state. If you're looking for new people to call friend, i would be interested in getting to know you better. iMkind.
many of us were forced to grow up quickly due to our environment. many things occured in my life that have forced me to do this. only in the last 3 years have i learned a little about why these things happen while at the same time learning many realities about life from them. my little brother started his learning process at the age of...
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joshguy:
he looks like a cutie...and thanx for the cute mouth compliment...i think..hehe
chaoticdreamer4:
'allo!
Haha... I like how all of that was a lead up to "he is the gay".
Haha... I like how all of that was a lead up to "he is the gay".
correction, generalities are not fair, he causes drama
13minutes:
"They" always do.
boys cause drama, im not a fan
i was tricked into attending the coachella festival. the first day was worthless except for the half of weezer's set i was able to catch. i finally got to see nine inch nails perform; something for which i waited ten years to finally experience.
saw the locust and aesop rock again. respectfully watched bauhaus and new order. and i questioned my brother's sexuality while he...
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saw the locust and aesop rock again. respectfully watched bauhaus and new order. and i questioned my brother's sexuality while he...
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joshguy:
HAHA..to much of a comment for a porn site...HAHA..i love this kid...who is she?
jk
jk
joshguy:
JUNE 11th mother fuckers!
i went to richmond to see bury your dead and a life once lost. i got kicked in the face, but not that hard. it was such an awesome show. there was a 12 year old there wearing a kiss tshirt, it was his first show. so cute.
jersey was quite nice. my friend and i talked about some shit; life and what not. i...
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jersey was quite nice. my friend and i talked about some shit; life and what not. i...
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chaoticdreamer4:
Either that or Smash... I think it's a tie between those two.
Bah... being unique in anything other than a "big picture" way is a lost cause... much like trying to be perfect.
Bah... being unique in anything other than a "big picture" way is a lost cause... much like trying to be perfect.
zorgnoff:
That's cool, sounds like you got to do both, whereas a few days ago you were thinking it'd be one or the other. Always good to be able to have your cake and eat it too.
aesop rock was fable-icious
west33785:
nice tattoos......
i love my friend so much that im going to miss the bury your dead/ a life once lost show to go to fucking jersey with him.
fuzze:
thats what being a good friend is all about hope you have fun in jersey cant wait to hear all about it when you get back take care of your self talk to you soon
take care of your self talk to you soon
joshguy:
pump that, bury your dead is ten times better than jersey!
i think that its amusing when people put X's in their screen name and do things like drink and do drugs. people being ignorant can be funny to me at times. and yes, it is very, very hard being the smartest guy in the room.
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chaoticdreamer4:
Most people do the Xs just because they think it's cool, or because the un-Xed version of the screen name they wanted was taken. Same way a lot of people think that sXe is a misspelling of "sex" or something like that.
chaoticdreamer4:
I'd argue the sleep bit... the only reason my sleep patterns aren't worse is because I don't usually have to be anywhere until 3 in the afternoon. When I'm in school and working at the same time I get maybe three hours a night, tops.
Yeah... listening to all the same kind of music is just boring. Besides, there's good stuff in almost every genre, so why cheat yourself of good music to maintain indie/punk/gangsta/whatever-stupid-stereotype cred or whatnot?
Yeah... listening to all the same kind of music is just boring. Besides, there's good stuff in almost every genre, so why cheat yourself of good music to maintain indie/punk/gangsta/whatever-stupid-stereotype cred or whatnot?
Tonight we're taking me fast car - Were gonna go down to the Cowboy bar - I'm gonna wait till the club is full - and I'm gonna ride the mechanical bull - Cowboy look is the one I sought - Can't change now cause the clothes are bought - To be a true Cowboy was my fate - I can't help it if I...
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But understand..OC is like 3 times as fun too. but i have a feeling the novelty of OC will wear off quickly if i moved there..so your saying i should move to rovksville?
<3-Josh Guy