the_monster

life is good. it's hard, it's awkward, and it never goes your way. but that's life and in the end that's what it's like for everyone. the more i come to accept this the more i enjoy myself.

had a nice long blog written and as soon as i go to add it my internet cuts out.

so to summarize, i'm finally back to getting tattooed thanks to being fully employed and i love my job.

the end for now. i'm too frustrated to attempt to write another long one.

my anxiety has been bothering me a bit these last few days. i'm hoping it's just due to stress from the phydical restraint training i've been in for my job. today is the last day, so hopefully i'll be doing better. i think i will be.

Generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) is an anxiety disorder that is characterized by excessive, uncontrollable and often irrational worry about...
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sometime i even surprise/confuse myself. the one thing i always wanted in life was to be happy with myself. i always figured the way to do that is to understand yourself. i no longer believe this is true. because lately, for the first time in my life i am truly happy with myself. and yet, at the same time i feel the furthest i've ever...
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i would like to start this off by saying i'm drunk. wether it's sad or not that i'm drunk at 9:45 on a sunday is open to debate. i really don't care. but god damn it am i lonely. i've been losing friends left and right. and i think that's normal at this stage in life people move away and people change. the problem is...
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i'm feeling pretty good. it's amazing what finally having a full-time job is doing for me. it may be dumb but it makes me feel like a real adult. i'm self sufficient without having to worry about making enough money from week to week, sure the pays not amazing, but it's steady and it's enough. i also feel good about what i'm doing. also i...
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life is going well. got an awesome job as a residential counselor for teens with mental health issues. it's certainly going to have it's good and bad days, but the staff is all really tight and a lot of fun to work with. i've honestly never been in such a laid back working environment (although it can get very serious when it needs too) with...
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employed.

good and bad.

bad news: what i thought was so perfect was of course far from. luckily i saw through the bullshit before i could get hurt.

good news: it's looking like i'm landing a job that i'll love. fingers crossed.

life is funny. and sometimes things all go good at once. i won't let myself take any of this for granted.